Arrested

todya runny nose whole day. very tired. very sick. got news. imma cut it short. cos im so heartpain and drained to type all these unhappiness

so yea. that jerk confesses to the police he stole my money. somemore stil lccan lie to my bro and tell him no he din take my money. what. trying to gain sympathy from bro and persuade me to give up? gth.

anwyay, seems liek imma get my full amount of money back. so polivce shall be my witness. luckily i ask him to be. but then agai i'll have to see him again. sianzzzzzzzzz
i rrly do not wish to se ehim,
=((( i wish someone cold accompany me there. huuuuu
im so tired of all this.. so.. heart draining...

and i cant believe he stil lgo find bro. wtfffffffff

turned out that he used to do dirty acts too. in his previous company. and also kept borrowing money from his colleagues
omg

im so tired.. and angry... i cant tka eanymroe of this shit.

eeven when wlking back home i was so worried.. so scared.... scared he'll wanna talk to me and god knows what... .
my mum rrly pity him. so???  whos gonna pity me?
only when i die in sydney isit????/

bro's tlaking on th ephoen now. i have a feelign its redz / why must redz keep using bro? or is bro under a spell??
sighs.
very heart pain cos my family pity adn love redz... ended up not siding with me much.... ...
only my frens are. and sammy.
i feel so unprotected. .veyr insecure..
=/
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like no one care about me
sighs

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i really dont wish to come home tonight u know.
sighs
fri how. the thoguht of seeing him irks me

seems that he msg our mutual frne he dunno where to get the 1500 money.
so??? my problem ar???
he;d better get the bloody money on time.
i als mah. no money still must pay fren back 800 first. imagine how i survive that
he can go sell off his laptop, house, whatever for all i care
i dont wan to be soft hearted like my family.

once u broke my trust, dont expect i'll ever forgive u, and thigns will be the same azs before.
i wont treat u gentle and nice sweet no longer. dream on.

....

im so heart pain now. .

ad i rrly wish he's here right now.. at least wont hav to go through this so tough..
will han gon desu. till the frightful friday is here.. .=((
i don think im strong enough to withstand all these now.. im breaking down...
=(

if not because of my frens n him, ..haiz. i rrly don know what to do. like. .no support at al.
at least can msg them my worries and all.
so yea. at least get osme advice and stuff

i think ..sammy show his concern in some other ways ba..
perhaps a guy's way.
i dunno
they have their own kind of ways for guys huh

dunno what to say to bro later. ...
sighs....
nah. i don feel liek talking to ppl who don... o well

i rrly doesnt feel liek tlaking at all.
im sick.. runnig a fever i think. .i dunno .im very unwell now

soul and pysical...

so thirsty...

just now stomach growling real bad... but not hungry. soemmroe no appetite... imma forgo my dinner ... yea.. hurry bath and rest then slp.

just wish.. if only my life can get a lil happier like his.
if only i can play2 some board games too.. laughing it away... at least i......

remind me again .. why are there so much misery, and little bit of happiness left in me..
i kept the darkness closed. but... sometimes they gushes out like now.
diminishing what lil left of my happiness.

i really have no mood to work.
but.. am doing my best ba..
see how. ....
i really dread friday.. who will keep my compan there.. .so early.. who ..... =(

jaa