Another bad day =/

stupid internet =/.= doesnt work. so have to use phones internet. omg. suckssssssss
sighs. today sooo boring. and quiet. due to rain? dunno.
just so slpy n super tired=( sighs.. .cant wait to slp.
alst nihgt. .dunno what overcomes me. .ha. so missing him. but o well... soemtimes u know. .u gotta break down .. cos u're just putting up a strong front .once in a whioel breakdown is good. strong front is to protect myself. act as a barrier i guess? yea. .the heartache isnt good thing to feel.. its better to have protection around my fragile heart.
so yea..
didnt know i was so weak eh.. .o well
today guess what. yanika called! cos of some work form thingy have to fill up. yes.. its that dam* form =.=
anwyay, so great to hear her voicde. i wish we could see each other again soon. haiz.. but im heading to syd.. or how.. sighs. .perhaps get used to syd first. i dunno. tix lazy go se en buy. o well.. nothing promts me to do so anyway.
mm... oh.. mum told me about that cousin of mine again. her bf have car and hid in the car today. ha. long sotry. anyway think u guys forgotten alreayd ba. i don liek my cousin. cos the way she act like a brat n a bitch and so mean to my late grandmother. i still hate her. and her family. though envious her bf can drive n send her andher family around, oh yes.. mum was telling me just now.. i was just laughing it off about the hid in car part.. just .. laugh to cover up ba. other wis eshe's gonna ask about him again n say nvm if he nvr contact me, still got other guys to find. .blah3.. u know. .old ppl words.. ha. o well.. naggy eh.
mm. yea. sometimes wearing a mask on the sleeves.. is better than facing it.
ppl changed. fog covers that up.. unknown.. tears it further apart...
reality is cruel . strangers.. are wahts left of it all..
that day.. went to mustafa.. walked past this condo.. reminded me of memories once forgotten. or nvr try to think abt it. yea. so forgot.
nah. .not worth mentioning. nothign much anyway. bt yea.. same place.. but diff now. the person i once knew, cos of issues, i dedcided to give up our frenship. better dont let us meet again. wouldve be too awkward. dots
gosh. .so gald  i have phoens internet. sigsh.. .
today sucks. =/ how would tmr be then. ...
sighs.........
perhas im jsu too slpy n tired? o well. ....

oh that day, a customer.. old lady.. asked me.. where did u get ur american accent frm? ... i was like... =.=''''''''
she then asked.. you study abroad? i was like no. you get it from ur parents? i was liek no.
you get it from urself? i was like .....-_-'''''''....... dots...... i just smile only and shake my head whispering no... =.= dots....
its sort of a yes.. but i didnt go and purposely learn it. it just happneed, and i speak the way i speak. i din learn nothing =.= dots... hate it if ppl think i purposely go learn what freaking accent. omg. ... but what to do. not my prob if htey wanna think that way eh. why care. perhaps its god sent gift ba. o well =/ dunno which god, but god or heaven. duno.
k.. haiz. .so boring. slpy n tired...

jaa mata

 -always being kept in the dark.. always the last to know.. what am i.. the last bread crumbs on the plate?-