yes i know.. sats.. i dunno whast up with tat.. today, one of the worst day of my lif.e. =( sighs.. .
i feel like dying alreayd.
i worked so hard on this important form to fill up for.. and guess what. it got deleted within a sec, and fuck. fuck. seriously. ... i duno what to sya... ...3 hours baby.
fuck.
o well. life is so difficult soemtiems. wha tt dod o. cant be avoidded
from the moment i woke up, my dya sucks big time. =/
..don wanna tlak about it. feels more sulky.. cos theres so much to rant about.. ubut. i cant. =( and i cant cry. becos of my position at work. i have to maintain my cool n calmness... its so fucking tough.. n u know me. when i type this way, u know somethigns not bloody righ twith me
i cant talk to anyone now. i cant say im tired, im stress or im hurt.. etc.. cos im working.. professioately. so eya. im tring so hard to be strong. but. i dunno man.
someitmes jus t feel like.. i couldnt hang on to this. i dunno man.. .=/ i dunno
bu tyea.
guess what. today i read a blgo of someone..
she's returing from hk. thoguh her bf said he wouldnt be picking her up(after a week apart) she still thought perhaps he might surprise her and pick her up at the airport. cos he always surprises her. but they missed each other, and she went home alone. yes.. he was at the airport. ha. then yea... once she reaches home, he ran the bath for her. they went down to eat. .balh3... and.. she misses him so much. and.. there was this time. .she was llost. cos the cab driver drop her at the wrong loacation. and she was scared. .blah3... she reminded of him.. always with him around, nothign to fear. cos she knew he's gonna find a way out for htem. but this time no hjim ,then somehow theres his voice in her head.. telling her to find a policeman...(could work for me next year.. hehe) and yea... yea.. i totally get what she means. if i get llost, i wouldve fel tthe same way.
i wonder.. =/ o well.. just how lucky she is... nowadays.. how manay guys will run a bath fo ru eh. .or still try to surprise u even after years together? yea.. theyve been together for long.
even she herself said sometime sshe take thigns for granted.. ..
u know.. certain innicidents.. makes us realsie tha early.. but .. others... not so fortunate.. by the time ppl realises simehting, they've alreyad lost it long ago... na.d.. its too late to clal it back...
sigsh
i am hur tbadly today. very badly.
but im still breathing. .. my heartbeat still moving on...
i am still alive. and thats the worst part of it all.
and i have to face tomorrow.
i thought i'd gotten stronger. but.. i did not. o well.
sighs... jsut so tire.d. n so.. disappointed.. felt liek i am misused. i am a toy.. n a spare.
but don worry guys, i wont make myself to be that worthless..
i know what to do..
anyway, tpoday a guy same age as me, thought i was 18. then i said no. hten he guess 20... i was like no.. then he said older? i said yes. .he was like. .omg u look so young. how i know his age, well i sign him up for member. =./= he with the wwf ppl i think. yea.. interesting group of ppl. very lively. the're holding an event at wisma or sioemthng i hope u guys wiwill support them too.
and yes. i'll fdefinitely be seeing them as htey said i will too
guess wat.i gtg. my bro off internet. i jsut tunrned it back on. gtg.
..see.. my day fucking sucks isnt it. told ya so. =(((((
sighs.. fml
jaa
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