realization

sighs. no mood to blog. ha..

anyway, was looking through boas pics.. then saw couple of pics. .abt this girl ... erm. 32 yrs old? from after school korean girl gorup look like her. cos they both have dimple. i don find them look alike at all though. gosh wth are boa fans thinking. weird kahi name. anwyay, i think they're pals though .turned out to be boa's backup dancer when boa was stillin gsinging no.1. omg. shocking.
she looekd rrly diff back then as her backup dancer. she's fine on her own. not so ugly. but.. maybe im jsut a big fan of boa. so thats why i can tell they don look alike at all .and that pisses me ooff. ha. so baka ne. =.=
this fan soul inside of me.
but yea. dunno. just pissed off. ha. weird eh. nah. not no mood becos of that

just having some mized feelings now.
mm.... dunno ba. so confusing huh. everything.

long phone caxll with sammy. his game play sounds was gd. o wellha. almost can see him playing in my head.
mm.. nah.. nope. din ask him the questions . now i realised. .some stuffs are rrly best talk in throgh voices eh
sometimes. .ppl depend too much on sms.. lost touch of reality..  he's very focus on the game as usual .adn leveling up.
if u get wast i mean

mm.. yea.  like that ba.

i wonder if its time for me to think like really deeply.
future. wat i want. wats worth fighting for, worth my life for, basically just everything  i guess

not easy

need to think of all sorts of possibilities
opportunities chances reality
wat is real, or just fadig away'

mm.. think imma do somet thinking in bed at night later. gonna slp real son so yea .doubt i'll slp well .

thought of playing tonight. but.. mm.. nah. perhaps not.. gonna go do soemt hinking.. whether if thats nescessary for all, and.. yea. hopefulyy tmr i'll decide wat i wanna do

so chim huh my words.
uh huh. a lil confused myself too . so yea.

jaa

striked hhard, fell back, now which way to get up