mmm.. hope he's feeling better now.. glad im able to wakey when he's so angry suddenly.. just glad im able to listen'.. though he din say wat happened.. but yea..
haiz. so wish he couldve been happier through his childhood days.. i understandmore than in the past now. .why thigns cant be said to his family and yea. ..
me dunno how anyone can tahan . .bear with it for so long.. especally after youve all grown up .. wonder how that feels.. =/ coudlnt have been gd eh... all ur life.. so much.. restricted. by ur family.. those restrictions.. and. .frustrations... ..i rrly duno how to imagien all that. mustve been rrly bad.. so wish i couldve known him earlier. so i can make him happier longer..
but yea. .soemtimes when its enough. .its enough. when its time to say no. stop. the time will come for the day. no one can be controlled throughout ur whole life.. no one deserve that.. so yea.. just rrly wish he can be happy always.. do the thigns he ever wanted to do .. (good ones of course XD duh ha).
..i have more freedom ba..i guess? at least. .my family are very flexible. now that im no longer a child, i hav more freedom than ever. cept to make a call if not coming home for dinner..(duh) that sort of small thign ba. but.. its.. ..tough. .to imagine whole life being like that.. cannot do anything much... i.. wow. dunn ohow he can stand it for so long.
mustve been so tough on him.. so so tough.. dunno how he rrly .. survive it all.. me just wanna be there for him ya know. make sure mi the source of 'light' and happiness fo rhim .. at least all i can do, is to make this special man, specially happy =)
and i wan to do that forever.
mm.. .tough day. haiz. oh man.. =/
znd so wish im off. to keep him company. and im so tire alreyad. cant wait for off .
anwyay, me still rrly uncomfortable with bunch of male customers coming in. then i 'll request to swope areas with my colleagues. cos i don feel comfortable like you'll hear these guys talking. .''blah3.... ..its ok to make frens..''...''...hello can i help u''... stuffs liek taht. hanging ard the store dunno chit chat for wat. not even browsing. gosh. i suspected they wanted to make frens with me.. (like last tiem remember? that guy=-.=) . maybe its my imagination. but to take precaution, i hurrie dto toilet. lol. after swoping places with my colleague.
luckily after im back theyre gone. but yea. i rather not take the risk of anythign happen. be it my imagination or wrong intution. if not later colleague say agian.. oh that guy keep checking u out. think he liek u=.= omg... disliek desu=.=
hair abt to dry. .gtg soon. sammy slpt first cos he wakey very early later. .aw...
hope he'll have a peaceful slp. no tummy ache. hope me wont get either. hahahah
haiz. time to rest
jaa mata ne .
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