21 January 2010

Calling Happy

gosh... feeling so hot right now... good thing theres wii to play while waiting for sammy to be back. hmm... so before that.. had dinner.. watch tv...

gosh.. had such a comfortable slp.. hm.. not say very comfortable.. =/ but well.. its nice.. kinda. haha.. hit the spray. and the moment i smell it, gosh.. i almost wanna hit the bed!! so.. down i go.. feeling alittle excited and some familiar aura there going on.. ah.. so nice and familiar.. leaving a space beside.. feels like he's right beside... without moving an inch,.. my body just lay right there.. ..there... sniffing in his sense.. the empty space almost as though its occupied.. i sleep.. feeling a sense of unknowing safe..becos feeling that he's near...

so weird.. haha.. dreamt of him for the 2nd night straight. =) sometimes.. u know those moments.. when u awakey a couple of times in teh middle of the night,.. but not really wakey.. more of like.. hm.. hard to explain.. anyway.. me wakey.. and the smell lingers on so strong.. and i think i kept smiling each time i smell it.. hahaha..... silly.. .. ah... tonight.. i shall do the same again..

so.. morning.. wakey.. feeling kinda.. hm.. abit sleepy still.. cos wanna slp back... back into dreamy land.. ha.. well.. went down for late breakfast with dad and mom.. hm.. then.. gib sammy a call.. wow.. that call is magical.. it totally changes my mood for the rest of the day. i was happy.. very happy.. its nice to hear him again.. his warm manly gentle voice.. =) ..

back home.. chatted abit with him before he went off for some time.. then.. yup.. just watch bro and redz play game..

hm.. but feeling very sleepy though.. ha.. perhaps my mind cant wait to go back to last night huh..

gosh.. :( my phone... huu.. still haven ask me to collect it.. argh.. its been a week already... haiz.. cant wait to get my phone back.. then hurry save up, get a new phone before it breaks down again. =/ cos for hte next time, im gonna have to pay.

hm.. today feels like a sunday.. everyone's home.. ..but... sammy isnt here.. well.. .. he'll be in my heart then.. looking through everything through my eyes.. my heart.. will always always.. have this spot.. where its a part of being sour..and.. yeah.. =/

hm.. i forgot.. did i mention in yesterday's blog about how pp reminded me of so much memories?
like.. how the first thought of him holding my finger gave me the butterflies in my stomach while i was waiting for a bus.. wow.. haha.. that feels.. the memory still feels so fresh.. as though its only a couple of months ago..
and how he talked about wanting to build a bike which look something like the bike from ff7 movie.. haha.... =) i actually held his hand when we cross the taxi stand.. i was thinking at that time.. oh no.. would he think im such a 'anyhow' type of girl?o.O hahaha.... cos i was rushing to the busstop or something.. so had to pull him along.. theres cabs coming along the way as well.. ha..
XD ahh.. sweet2 memories... even with the first kiss going on..
well.. i guess.. for every firsts.. its always so sweet and innocent..
so beautiful.. such memories..
he's deeply etched in my heart...
yet still feel the heart hurting whenever misses him much..
its cant be helped.. for i could not see him, nor feel him to be sure of his safety..

ah... shooty.. got another long scratch on my thigh accidentally... =/ gosh..

hmm.......... k then.. i guess i should be slping early tonight huh..
hmm.. =/ i duno.. o well. .shall see then.. cos not everyday i get to feel happy like this..

mata

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