Blinded fool

if only i just headed fo rbed.. .

so this is how it feels like. to be lied to.. to be a toy for soembody. to be someboyds evil joke.
to be make a fool out of.
to be make used of..

finally  i see these all lies. right from the beginning.
i was utterly wrong. i thought i knew what i used to know.
he';s good. oh yes he's so damn good.
i was completely fooled al lthis fucking while.

and to think i was backing him up all along. i am such an idiot. to be hit at the back without realising it. lies . uteerly completely all full of fucking lies.
why am i so stupid.

yea good. this is good. its out in the open now. i wont be speaking up for as well.
i placed too my trust. i hrt myself in the end. and yes. i well deserve it. i wasnt that bright. adn i just trusted the wrong person.
uh huh. this type of person is good.
so good. they probably enjoy best hurting other ppl out eh.

ha. ...hahaha..............
haha.....

ahhh.....

baka me ne.

really such an idiot for all these years.....
o well.
from today onwards. i wont stop myself no more.
i will do wahtever i want.
no one can restrict me.
yea. i'll rather be thsi way. yea. .i could protect myself.

u know what. perhaps i should start by doing soemtiing that is the most hateful. i dunno. but.. .well.. we shall see.

guess waht. suddenly all these pains seem sto overcome my fatigues. yea. ...
so be it ba.
life is definitely too short.

don worry peeps.
its just another and yet another rounds of pains... thats as thogh my med already eh. hahahahahahahahha

yea. i'll start by tomorrow.
i'll see awht i can do. but i wont be revealing it here though. sorry.
so yea .
liek that ba.

girl... who kena so many lies for so many years.. .gonna get away from lappy fo rnow.

jaa ne