was so reluctant to head out. but i did. whle day down. no mood. i duno what to say. but just. no mood.. i didnt ask for pressy.. i didnt .. this n that. i wasnt myself. the entire day.. ... last mn plan to have dinner. anway.. yea. was so down. my special day wasn tso special after all .
nothing goes my way.
nothng makes me happy.
sighs. i felt liek im down into the bottom less pit again.
and im so sad. it was a pathetic day.
so waht if thers good food and wnies? u think i'll liek my life this way>
?
oh fyi, i only minded the fact that i have no birthday cake. no candle. .+ no birthday wishes.
sighs.
o well .for the first itme eh. .no brithdya cake at all. ..o well .nvm. ove ralreyad. ..waht to do
its time tha ti don and shouldnt troubel him any further.
i think its time to.. just let it all go now.
words been made clear. and i guess in a way that.. shoudl be an answer eh.
be it now or later. yea. .... this is his decision. i shoudl respect htat .
i actually wanted to say.. i would learn to be strong on my own. but sorry peeps. i couldn not lie here =/ i cant. i knew i couldnt be.
if i do, life wouldve been happier isnt it.
so yea. ..
i said it umpteen times before.. ppl, take good care of the one u love.. never give uthem up fo rno reason aites. trust me. u do not want to suffer like the way i do.
at hte end of the dya. .i jsu wish i could share at least somethin gwith.. but... .o well.
sighs............
ppl, if you follow your heart, and your heart tells u follow your dreams, hten go fo rit. do not give up on something important n matters to u the most.
i wish to tell him all these but i cant. because.. .there are a couple of reasons not to. ...
mainly becos i cannot be selfish between him n his family.
to give up on something u love dearly ,is liek cutting a piece of flesh off urself.
just mark my words peeps... hold on dearly to ur love ones.
sighs. .3 years and 6 months now. .. i wish him all the best ne..
i bet he definitely has a better life than me right now. good for him ba at least.
yea definitely..
k peeps. here goes my birthdya ending. and it sucks badly . o well .nv m ba. anwyay its over. no one wil lrememrb it.
my soul and heart all badly wounded. .... just need somebody to heal fo rme righ now... who woudl that be...
how long will that take huh..
...o well. .sighs..
i hate today. even though it shoudve beem sopecial..
we lost each other becaus eof them. and my life therefore changed forever too.
sigsh..... waht to do.
.... the feeling of abandoned.. .is the worst that u can ever get.. ..
sighs...
perhaps someone else will learn to appreciate it more ba. ...
jaa mata
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