Notification sucks =.=

haiz..  dunno why u know. i always check my phone if theres any notification from whats app. guess what. i just found out that i have both sat n sun msgs from wast app from sammy, but nothign notify me about it!!! wth>????? oMG. sighs.. i miss him so much.... =( was like.. .trying to cheer his day up with night msg.. so he could see it int he morning. but then never reeived any msg from him at all... thought perhaps he's too busy to reply me. .or forgot about me again.. . cos usually he wouldnt reply even i msg him in mrg or at night... if he's too busy with school or somethign. or maybe he didnt receive my msg at all? due to mis connection? i dunno...
till today, i checked my whats app, and found out he did msg me. WTH>>??????????????// =.= 

OMG. besides msn, now that is irritating me too? gees!!! sighs. .... tch.. i dunno what to sya man.. seriously.. ..haiz.........
...but anyway, im glad i made his day... reallly. sometimes i'll just imagien how if he really smile to my msgs at all.. ..

todya was playign thos conversation dinner party game with my frens.. one of the questions is.. whats the most memorable date u ever had... i had two. and while i was desicribing it, my tears drop. ha. well. .that always happens.. i  cant control it.. ...its like.. u won lottery in ur once in a lifetime. .n how u lost it in the end.. ..

sioemteims i still blame myself.. but al lof my frens supported me. .saying i am not the one to be blame.. .i wish i could've be 'pretencious; enough.. act good enough to win his parents heart.. i realy wish i could.. just u knwo. force myself or somethign. i have only first time meet n u know.. just once. im glad my frens understand.. dunno if he relaly does.. but im sure his parents doesnt...

its so hard to let go.

i have this fren. she's 19 . her bf older few years than her. he already asked to break up with her for like a couple.. more than a couple of times. breaking her hearts time n times.... then. taking her ba ck again LIKE SPARE TIREs.
sighs. guys shouldnt do that at all =/ haiz.... but yea... anway.. .im not worrieed for her. cos she's a great girl.
i... im worried if for me thoguh.. cos..... .... if for me,... im sure guys will take me. point is. .im not sure if imma able toaccept them.
but anwyay... .yea. no girl deserve to be treted like she did..
anway, they're back together again. he's loking fo rsomeone who knows everything. well, he did. he's olde rn knowsn alot. butu cant force someone to be perfect all the time =/ u gotta love her for who she is. so what if u find other girl who's smarter than u? u htink that girl is  gonna love u more than she does? sighs. she dont deservce to be treated that way.. .. cos im very sure if they do break up, for real, theres gonna be a lot of guys after her. she's a great catch .

haiz... i just really miss the simple times spend with the guy i love... its so simple. ..yet aamaizn. guess what. today i kept thinking about the first time we being cloe together.. first time i slept at his palce. and so.. i dunno why.. but i just miss him. and hte times spend tpgether. how i wish.. those days couldnt turn back to me... how i wish... everything is back to how it used to be... im scared things will change one dya...... scared. but i couldnt control it eh...
how i wish to experiince the outsome if thigns had not change at all... ... happiness is so hard earn as we all know... ..

how far would you gop for ur love one?
i would like to know....

my throat.. stil laint getting better. nope. gettin gworse im afraid. cos i've been giving training to my fellow team members.. n talk talk talk... ..thus explained the pains. so yea. back to square one again... 

coiughing non stop. thurs at my worse... till now. .sunday? still not better yet .. =/ sighs/ get well soon ne i hope.... .

pray for me peeps..

tofday, was disappointed at the staffs my manager did. soemomre she smoke!!! taking smoke breaks =. sighs. why must malays smoke so much . i dunno why.sighs. but in anycase... ...sighs.. o well.
whatever ba....
at least i think she's better than the last manager.. i hope . gosh..

sighs.......  ..o well. dunno what to say. feels o lonely n helples especialy when sick.
nose still stucked at night or moring.. .coughing starts forever... yes i hope to get well asap.

ok. my internet is abot to be settel soon. perhaps by tmr. then will settle passport photo submission. after taht, air tickets!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111 yes. finally .guess ive decied on the dates. jus need to buy tickets now. after i settel passposrt. mm... wish me all the best amtes. !!

mm..........  haiz. i wish i could be happier. seriously.
sometimes i also dunno what to say to my frens whos gonna go through ldr soon.. or being in lrd now...
its easier when u knew u are gonna love the person forever no matter what. a pity.. its not easy for em cos of his u know who//i know.late now.. very late.. but i still don feel liek slping.... i miss... im sad.. im down.. et hyper... how then?
haiz.

 k ba. stopping now i guess? .... throat pain since.. monday. no. last sunday nihght . haiz. till now couhgin non stop. ...

if only i have the time to rest....

wahst most important is.. find a partner whom u can be who u are. fooling aroud, make a fool out of urself.. be silly.. be stupid.. be the best...
i just wih i can have that person next to me now. // but apity somebody just loves to stop us eh..

haiz. ..o well =/ cry also wont change anything,., k.. my throat hurts now.

jaa, mata