CALLS

hmm.......... ...theres always great disappointments ahead.. whenever i had my research done.. and through time of web searching.. =/
..what to do... thats why.. i hate that kind of feeling.. where u put every thoguhts into it, and end up with a bad result. all for nothing. haiz. o well.
thought i could do something about the calling thingy for overseas.. .. well.. seems like i could only wait till i get a phone plan..and see what offers they might have. heard from sammy they have such.. but.. ...well.. i got a doubting feeling with me. anyway, thats a couple of months to go.

ah.. me called sammy.. then.. forgot again.. >_< ha.. like.. always forgot something to say to him after i heard his voice.. aw.. making me wanna slp too.. ^^ he sounded so comfy.. ha.. he might even forget my letters for him if me never remind him huh. =P
he's really busy today. i hope he eat on time.. tmr.. class shouldnt be too boring for him ne. hm.. yeah.. should be better..
oh.. actually was gonna tell him his msg so sweet in msn. he really changed it. makes my day. super duper sweet. ^^
last night also.. wanna ask him about it.. then end up msn him while he's offline. anyway.. very sweet..

was waiting for his msg though..today. he said breaktime will do so. but i waited.. never come. so im sure he's busy. but yea.. just hope he have a proper time to eat well thats all... ..hopefully.. my future job can allow me to have some free time enough to msg him.. at least.. for a goodnight msg.. ...imagine. .will be so sad if i couldnt even reply him a proper on time goodnight.. =( ..huu.. hate that..

sigh.. nowadays been falling aslp slp.. like.. couldnt slp.. dunno...
last night.. was looking through my pics with him.. ...as usual.. then.. close up my slide phone, saw my pic.. like.. =/ so wanna replace it with his.. then.. dunno.. haven yet do it.. cos.. i know myself.. if i miss him extra lots, if i happen to look at my phone, then saw his pic, i might just cry T_T ..
ne.. when i finally stop crying for a night before bed, i'll tell ya guys aites.

oh.. me noted that date down... I watched him sleep for the very first time through webcam.
been a while.. thats why thought of it.. *teary eyes
the moment i remember that night,.. my heart clenches hard together.. and then.. my eyes got all teary.. i dunno.. i cried easily. ha. its just that.. every little memory counts so much more in my heart especially now that we're apart.. You Can't get to do that everyday or anytime you want ya know. and so.. every special moment, makes it all the more special... ..always in a special place of my heart... ..

have you ever tried.. like. .happily and smiling talking to another person, then the next Sec, your tears fall down when u are reminded of something....and your eyes goes red.. and still trying to talk with another person.. like.. talk casually.. then.. wiped off the tears, and back to normal after you've stopped thinking.
its amazing in a way..ha. but it can be done nonetheless. its possible.

wow.. me and mum fixed a chair from scratched today! ha.. but mum lend her strength, me read and do.. wee... and lend my strength as well k. ha. its difficult.. but yea.. managed to fix a chair. haha.. oh no.. im sorry.. its assemble a chair!! XDso yup. its pretty cool.
girl power.

oh.. mum told me that.. in day time, she took a bus.. changing bus.. at geylang there.. bus 26 always pass by there when we heading to city plaza. anyway, she tld me that theres one time, she's standing there for bus.. then theres this uncle thought she's those type of ahem.. hooker.. mum say there got alot.. so yup.. he asked my mum what bus to where.. blah3. hten my mum say she don know.. after that, that uncle scolded her in vulgar words. argh.
ever since tehn. my mum dont dare to change bus from there again. phew..

mum always ask me if sammy got call me everyday. dunno whether sms considers as da dian hua anot.. so me say yea.. then she told me.. sam wont anything wan.. he's not(even) a huai dan. huai dan in chinese, meaning bad guy. or a bad person. hahaha...
i know what she's trying to say to me.. that he's a very nice guy.. and he wont do anything bad to me behind my back wan..
i know.. thats why she also tell me dont anyhow.. must stick to one man.. hahaha..
.yea.. i know how she want me to understand.. and just point them out to me.. that all i already knew.. well.. but its still nice to have someone else trying to assure you that.

me went to city plaza there with mum.. bought some steamboat sauces.. have a look at new year stuffs.. then redz joined us.. ha.. he found a new job. working near pp. well, guess he'll be staying with us for more frequent times eh.
2 hours to go.. sammy will awake.. ... =/.. so feeling like.. wanna wait till 2 hours is up,when he wakey..then msg him morning..
.. sometimes ne.. in the middle of the night, couldnt slp.. thought of him... misses his voice. .so wanna call him.. but.. cannot desu.. not nice mah.. ha.. imagine huh.. his 5,6am.. me called.. he pick up.. me say.. miss u.. just wanna hear your voice.. gdnight.. bye. then he.. in a blur2 way.. ee.. orh.. miss u too.. nights.. zzzzzzzz then fall back aslp. ha. nah.. just imagine him slping tightly under his blankie will do.. ...

... =( heard the price for the tickets to australia might be rising up.. cos they are building some kinda.. erm.. full body scanners thingy in airports.. so.. yea.. .. sigh.. nvm ba.. wanna rise it, then rise ba.. what to do.. =/
.. o well

..i thought about the future... its sooo uncertain..and so risky. and frightening. sometimes.. i tell myself.. heck care.. just look forward at least until over 2012 dec 21st. after that.. u can worry all you want. i guess.. thats the only reason to..kinda stop me in a way from wondering into the future.
it needs to be planned. i want it to be.. so.. i wouldnt have any disappointments to come.. i hate those heavy ones..

kk.. gotta head for bed already.. goodnight peeps.

mata.