Confidante

hm... i think im getting back to closer with bro again.. ever since chinese new year... dunno.. but its good ha.. .

wow.. see.. first day gone already.. another to go.. cant wait for sam to get back home.. .

me.. try doing lots of things today in order to shift my attention.. for the first time, me never stay in my room for long.. not staying by my lappy's side.. feels.. different.. o well..

i hate being neglated... thats a extreme big no no for me. got it?

ouch.. my feet... =/ lots of 'bubbles'.. pain when they burst. very ouchie.... ..

oh... played pool with my g.f. she say i aim good. ha.. but i gotta say, my strength sux.. like.. no 'power' XD she also compliment my legs look nice. ...woo... i was surprised. .cos im short.. so.. yeah.. thats a nice compliment, and a fresh one at that.

i only wanna make love with the one man i love most. i wonder hows it feel like.. when u.. ahem..without any protection inside.. eh... erm.. yeah.. ha. .juts wondering how that feeling might be. .can feel or not.. bleahx..shy..

me.. never been through any kind of lucky in my whole life worth mentioning.. but. only luckiest thing, is to have him, meet him..

wow... i was so taken aback.. ... =/ my fren.. fallen outta love.. called me.. confide in me.. he always does.. he say im the only person he can talk about this with.. his other male frens.. cannot.. so.. yeah.. i was like.. wow.. im the only one who could help him huh..
its difficult to explain his situation.. but.. all i can say is, he's so heatbroken, like.. wanna commit suicide.. and if i wasnt there to listen, he would've done so. =(
so yeah.. after the talk, he went drinking his fren.. then yeah.. thank me alot.. say he wont forget this(that i helped him).. well.. i tell him, i just did what a fren should.. theres no need any kind of thanks or whatsoever..

sigh.. so poor thing =/ i understand how he feels.. to lose a love one,(erm.. more of like.. he woo her, but she.. ..=/ mislead him..and now like this.. sigh.. gib him fat hopes.. =( )
and feeling as though its the end of the world, u just feel like killing urself..
i say i understand.. becos if (touchwood) my love one abandon me one day, i would've feel the same way.. and i wouldnt listen to anybody's advice.. cos.. yeah.. too upset..

so i told him the same thing. .ask him to calm down even though i know he wouldnt. but just try to relax.. then.. well.. me just talk3... advice3... and yeah.. well... sigh... ..shall see how ba..
me never ever imagine that one day i would be such an important person to someone. =.= important as in.. well.. the only one who could confide in.. so yeah.. im glad he managed to calm down a tiny bit.. then yeah.. ask his fren to tc of him while drinking.. so.. hopefully they're fine ba.. poor thing.. that fren also gonna move out this weekend. =/ haiz..
...well.. all i can do is to listen, advice, tell him about how i feel of all these.. hm.. yeah.. just lend him my listening ears.. hm... i hope he'll get better..

he may be crying now..
oh.. speaking of that.. haiyo.. last night i was feeling quite ok ne.. then... go through sam's photos, cry alot. -_- ha.. forever. XD o well.....

tonight.. im not accompanying my lappy.. cos sam aint around. so.. yeah.. k then.. off me go to living room...

mata ne