10 February 2010

A Sense Of Emptiness

=/ hmm......... is it my first time?.. ..feel so empty... without swty around... sigh......... a kind of emptiness.. dunno how to explain ba.. though.. online.. sometimes he also doesnt talk much.. but at least i know he's there.. hm.... its a kind of feeling ba.. ..
so.. yeah... me went out abit for new year chinatown, came back, he's already aslp.. but.. even if never head out.. dont think there'll be much time to talk anyway.
ah..... i think theres a number of things wanna tell him... nvm ba.. i can always tell bloggy here if anything ba.. ..

the angmoh fren who say he like me,(me got tell my bf k) contacted me again after a couple of months. but ever since he said that, me no longer contact with him. so if my frens are going out, he's coming along, i'll declined to go as well. so yup.. he msg me.. but me never reply back anything. so.. o well.. lost a fren! ha.. but its ok.. better to stay away from him ne. ... i feel much better and comfortable this way.

wow.. last night.. not comfy to slp.. then suddenly me wakey in early morning.. read swtys msg.. then.. oopsy.. accidentally press send! haiyo.... he in class mah.. so.. yeah.. morning wakey, me still blur2 abit..
anyway, after that, me nose keep on running =( then me go out to bro's sofa bed and lie down.. yea.. he places his sofa bed in the living room already.. hm.. kinda looks nice.. and comfy to sit.. anyway, its just a sofa.. me no pull it into bed shape..
guess what. its so soft! it had such a comfy soft touch to my body ya know. i slept better, theres cushions as my pillows.. then me slp.. dream alot! hm.. dreams. very dramatic. .as though in movies.. oh.. wanna tell swty about this too.. .. anyway, its amazing! as though the fallen cars were diving right at me! and i dodge it just in time! not just one car ya know.. anyway, its an exciting dream.
hm.. i think theres another.. oh yea! motorcycle.. hahaha.. yeah.. dunno why suddenly dreamt of cars..motors.. ha.. anyway. yeah.. its a good slp i guess.. only for a couple of hours on the comfy sofa bed. been so long since i slept on any big and thick cushion.. so yup..
then.. when me wakey, go into my room lie down, runny nose again. =.= so fast..

hm... chinatown.. just walk abit only.. once a year thingy ba.. cos of chinese new year.. so yup.. nothing much there.. just eat and walk.. look at the lights..

...came outta the station, really reminded me deeply of how i first intro sammy to my bro.. he meet us up after his work.. had lunch with his colleagues first.. .. hm.. ... haiz...... sometimes the memories can be just so deep and real..even with 2 years passed.
sigh... o well......... ...then we went to bugis.. then.. ha.. okok.. stop now ba.. later wanna cry le ...

hm.. getting sleepy..

mata ne.. ....

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