..wow.. having funny feelings.. .. found my ex school mates fb profile.. .. 2, from tom boy, tehy became more girly with long hair.. another, a nice2 sweet girl.. now turn out into a ah lian with even a tattoo on her hand.. and one more.. always have something against me.. and always wanna compete with me.. bully me in a way.. that girl. looks no difference now.. but.. like.. ok.. from her display pic.. like.. normal girl..
o well.. anyway.. feels really weird.... ... perhaps of some bad memories.. =/ i wish i can erase them.. ..
last night.. i read my notebook.. found that.. i actually noted down how i'd spent my birthday last year. then.. suddenly everything come back to me..
sammy sleptover at my place.. but went out for abit cos he say his mum want him to settle some issues at lavender.. me thought he'll be out for long.. so.. i get ready to head out too.. tehn about to head out, he say he's done.. so me meet up with him.. then we walk along ion.. town.. then took a bus to bugis.. and had a piece of cake.. i was so full!! gosh. haha... he kept saying happy birthday to me.. and.. he sang me a birthday song..
only the birthday song part, and he went out to lavender part i forgot.. oopsy. but yeah.. its important to me.. so.. yup.. glad me recorded it down.
i swear i still remember the way he look at me when we're on the escalators.. we were facing each other.. he say happy birthday to me again.. he say.. he's happy to spend the 2nd year with me.. for a moment there.. his eyes redden..i think.. for that moment, i felt it.. i know what he's talking about.. how he's feeling. .cos im feeling the same too... its as though saying... yes its 2nd year... ... its a precious one indeed.. for.. there might not be a 3rd..... .... no.. its.. there's definitely wont be a 3rd.. in person that is. ..
today the show.. .. reminded me of him and me.. i was so envious... ..ha. but i know its just acting k.
..that night.. was watching another show. theres this part of story about this couple.. bf and gf going australia to study. bf last min cant go cos of mum sick. so break up with her, and stayed behind. the girl went there alone. soon, she came back. saying... she realized she cant live without him.. so decided to come back.. anyway tehy can always go overseas again in future if they want to. when redz saw her, he's like. .oh.. she came back for him! i felt the same way too.. it was a good ending for this couple in drama. for that moment, i thought.. wow.. wouldnt it be great if that happen in my case..?.. but. i know... thats just a drama...
hm.. i think.. me told sammy just now about what i wanna talk about.. hm.. but nt sure if i'd missed out anything anot.. ha.. but just type out alot to him.
wow.. .valentine's day coming.. our first valentine day spent is on the 16th. he's sweet shy reserve.. ha. really2 nice =) yeah.. due to work.. so.. yup.. couldnt spend it on the 14th. my 21st birthday he couldnt spend it with me too. but he's on the phone with me, and first to say happy birthday =)
cny is coming too.. gosh. i never prepared anything much.. =/ like.. what to wear.. or.. .. sigh.. i guess.. this year without him.. just. ..i dunno.. i dont have any mood for this cny.. .. =/ anyway..... ... yup. .tmr is the eve.. wow. .fast huh.. .. hm........ tmr.. me gotta get ready already. o well... =/
so.. yup.. wow. .cant believe cny is here in couple of days time.. .. k.. just. .. try to be happy ba..i guess. and u know.. well.. have a new year.. ha..
oh.. tmr another happy occasion.. we're gonna be celebrating mum's birthday in advance. haha. tmr gonna have steamboat too. gosh.. gonna be so full. ha.. yup.. i hope i wont cry on cny first day.. i must do my best.. especially at night. i have to do everything to stop my tears from coming out. i dunno.. but ppl say if u cry on cny, u'll be crying for the rest of the year.
so........... yup. i did that before.. so.. haha.. well.. let just say, believe it or not, i'd better keep my eyes dry at all cost. haha.
valentine's day.. ... hm.. just gonna have a phone chat with sammy ba.. cos.. couldnt actually plan a date.. me will be out.. he also have school.. and sleepy.. so.... yeah.... like i said.. ..o well.. spend it through our heart mind and souls.. thats the basic i supposed.. ..
..i miss him.
oh.. yesterday morning, me wakey.. feeling sexy. XD!!!!!!!! LOL. omg..... wonder if thats the reason why sometimes sammy would say that to me.. ha. anyway....... i only care about his compliments.. not others.
oh.. me and mum are taking out the new year tibits.. and places them all on the table. ... i still really wish sam could be here.. ..
..... anyway.. well .gonan be meeting my relatives alot.. and. .hm.. kinda exciting in a way i guess.. not like its fun. but.. well.. whatever, ha.
mata..
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