Dreams you wish were real

gosh. i cant believe this. ytd one. today another??? dremt of sammy again. omg. but this is very bad. becos i dreamt of his parents. n his mum face is so vivid in my dream. i could stil lrememebr so cler right now. difference is, they treat me so nice in dream. or the mum only. duno . but yea. no wonder htey say sometiemes dream is way much better in reality. in reality they didnt even treat me like so welcome or nice. .=/ well. thats all in the past now. anywya, that is disturbing. my collregue in this dream too i think. gosh.. i was at sydney his house.. then i rememebr being at airport or something. .same. .as usuall. .heading back to sg.. i think.
yea. gosh.. sighs. =/ in a down mood now. dreams wont let me off eh.
sighs........... .... sianz.... very down now. haiz....... =(
early in the morning. .ruined my day liao. whole day gone. sighs. hopefully today somethign good will happen ba =/ sianz.. ....
 will try to stay cheerful like him also so difficult. duno how he did it. nah.. i'll just go around finding some tips or solutions or sumtin. been almost 2 months alreayd isit? yea.. especially march. its hell. i hate this month march of 2011. totally hell shit for my life.
sighs. like that ba. k. ..tch.. .wish i could cheer up now. no special laughter nor smile from him anymore. super med is gone. me gotta find a way to cheer up on my own now. help
mata