03 April 2011

not starving. its numbing

ya know.i thought. .if u rrly want something, u'll go for it. and it doesnt matter if u have to wait. but. sometimes. life situations are different. very different.
so... o well. thats just how life is. ppl changes. and. u know, u just have to react the same way as they do. sometimes yea.
at least... there wouldnt be more troubles when u stand by ur parents words
that aside, im so tired n still  a lil weak. but mainly tired. totally need to sit. i cant stnd anymore. =.=
yea.. starved myself for 2 days. then i thought. .why not gorged myself after that. didnt rrly feel good. but  well. quite an experience. see.. after the first day, totally felt like as though u just slpt for 3 hours after a good old dance at club... then work. then still feelign the hangover. get what i mean? ha. yea..
diz man. well, so far so good. very tiring. abit weak. but alrite. so yup. just ya know.. needed to wake up for a little. hm. .so yea.
my frens all saying hostel is good. its very cheap. i was thinking.. ya know. perhaps so too. alil.... weird n frightening. but i think it should be fine. hmmm=.= well, shall see how then. anyway, that could be helping me to save heaps too.
in case im not heading to melbourne.
sighs. =.= k mart aint delivering their stuffs to nowhere. only to us. =.= sianz. sad sia . 
haiz. .rrly regret not getting their u know hwat there =((((( sighs.... why didnt i get in the first palce? well, thought it skidna awkaard to wear in house. with family members around. plus hteres no u know who htere to slp with me. wear for what. but now, well.. i thought of u  know. it Can be wear out with the right coverage. so why not. i don wanna wait till im 40 till wear it with husband. why wait when u can just wear something like that now? from 20s, al lteh way to 60s. why not  don wanan waste 20 years of my youth man. just do it ba. nothig to lose anyway.but yea. sighs. .gotta just wait till nexxt year then can buy =(((
haiz. im on a rrly tight strict budget now. i blog about htis yet? i think so. cant remember. but nvm. yea... budget so tight now. but cant resist spending money soemtimes. very stress . =/ so yea.. .well, just gotta save on ba. 3 or 4 months to go. tch.. i hope the fair will come again soon. i rrly cant wait. im scared. but u know. thast one of hte way i need to venture out to. so just do it ba.
imma slp late tonight. duno. just felt like doing so.
o well. i coulndt concentrate nor do a rrly good job at work. but im sure my colleagues wil lunderstand ba.. ... =/ haiz.
oh cheers. my and my collegue get great feedbacks at our company fb page. boo yea. ha. love it. ^^
glad she appreciates us. cheers.
sorry. once again, time to tmime. .have to remind u guys.. i don check my spelling,s and im lazy to retype them. and i don re read what i wrote. and i'll try to diouble check if my blog posted the full version or not. usually i dont bother abut my other blogs. so this frenster one is my main one. and the longest with me. uh hu... h ..been so long man. my good old frenster blog.. ha. o well
im sure if u look back on the posts perhaps 4 years ago and on, i sholdb be about the same as now ba. i never read back. but i think should be .ha
 though. .trying to do as he said. but its hard. loneliness never fades. u know. u just gotta get used to the life without telling anybody hwos ur day. .good or bad. u used to do that every day. then suddenly u stop. telling no one about it. dont feel like talking anymore either. yea. .it takes time to get used to this all over again eh. quite abit of trouble
omg. i hate guys hitting up on me. it slike. for those who did, straight cancelled off my list. no chance at all. =.= wth is this.. .did anybody tell u u're pretty? dont believe them. its not true. its ur eyeswhich make su so pretty. .....i was like. dotssssssssssssss thanks. but i dont care about such comments. wtf man????? omg. was laughing and yet wanna curse it out at him. it was.. .unbelivable. omg. i hate guys liek that. straight away no chance. wtf. omg.. -_-
and i cant stand it when guys keep asking when is my off days. for those whom i never met for a longgg tiem, or they get note of im with nobody now.  i try so hard to give excuses man. perhaps its time to stop. =/  meet them up or something. get them off my back. argh. but sometitmes i'll rather go somewhere else to have fun than to meet them. =.=
thoguht of heading out to pub alone after work .. but was thinking.. since i had nothing in my stomach, better not do so.  too weak man. gosh. and im sooo frigging tired righ tnow =/ i rrly dont feel liek standing for the next couple of hours time.
u know... thats abou tit ba.
thought of alot of things.. but perhaps not tonight.
mata




yearning for the words that says i love you

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