hating tmr =(

haiz,... i am not one bit lookign forward to tmr at all =/ sighs.. i raelly3... wishes theres no tmr.

u how how ppl says.. nomatter how tough a day is, you still gonna live it.
well.. i had that feeling. a totaly true blue  live it moment.
the day u wish.. u will not need to spend at that place and time.. u wishes so badly to get out of there.  u wish that this isnt happening at all.. and that you will be able to get out of it.. but sadly, no =/ tick tock2... you're still standing at the place u detest.. facing situation u detest... no mood to do anytig, yet forced to do so..
sighs. .those moments, are.... =/ painful.

i couldnt remember since when's the last dya i had my proper off and stay at home to slp n rest. the one off per week is killing me. and guess what. i think im sick again. both mentally n phyiscally =/
sighs
very tired. very3 tired. i shouldve gotten myself a week of leave in july or something. = / i didnt. .perhaps.. o well. .becos i wanan save my leave sfor my jan holidays.. =/ so yea. ... haiz... tell me this is all worth it.. ... sighs

so yea.  dunno hwat im doing .. now. .like. .weird. .the work im doing. .i dunno. iim so tired.
sighs
think im getting sick again cos too tired. haiz.
gosh.. i feel like.. wow. so blue. n down.
where's my cheerfulness gone...

later cant wait to watch dvd with bro. been waiting for sooo long. yay. the only nice thing to happen to dya ba =/ yea.. thoght he'll say no. cos he said no when i asked him before if he wana watch with me. then whne he replied ok!' wow. i was like. yayyyy phewww wha a relief. of course better with redz to join us. but i think he's not up to it ba.. o well.

so yup. very tired. stupid thing happen. and. .card not made. .causing me to wait somemore... luckily theres mall to walk around. .n i get to eat this yellow ginger tofu. omg. its bloody hot. hotter than the chicken. its either cos absorbs the sauce or soemthing, or becos that chef actually is a very good one, and he really make it very true blue spicy.
but yea. i will eat it again. another dish to challenge. woo hoo.

so yea.. u'll know when something is wrong with ur body. .then ur body will signal u to slow down.. etc..
haiz. i wish i could listen ..

not much of an appetite just now. had abit of dinner. =/
my face totally is this crumple expression...
my room is messed up.. me no energy to clean.. just .. really need to sit. n lay back. i cant move any longer. sighs.

just wish if only  i could feel that same happiness i had years back. why must things be so complicated now.

n i wonder. what is my focus now.
perhasp thast why i felt a sense of loss ba.
no nothing. just same old days everyday. what am i here for anyway i wonder.
is this the me before i met him. could be eh. the way i type and feel.. about the same. i think. =.=

need to destress soon.
mm.. bro will be coming back home soon eh .. ..

mm... living for.. .focus for.. future for... no clear answers for those.
wish i could walk out of it. and u know. figure everyting out.

oh yea. come to think of it. i think im still heading there. i know what imma do there. i think... yea.. i think so ba. could be doing n walking ard hte same old place and stuff.... but.. well, my first time eh. must be brave . tch. but the nightlife there scary sia. but still... mm... =.= see how ba. very challenging. vbut .. can learn. maybe one day i can go backpack eh. lol.
o well.

the perfect dream of future.. thos ebeautiful pics.. sighs.. o wel...

mata