Lonely Planet

sorry guys, last night was too tired to blog anything.

gosh i had these 2 weird dreams. .very long and super clear in my head. first one is. .a vampire .. who looks like a normal man.. he tried to turn me into his kind. i dunno why me. another dream.. more of me in a contest.. dunno waht. .alot of strangers. .at unknown place.. family around.. sammy waiting for me at one of the are.a.. but the first dream was so bizarre. ha... creepy. i was even flying! soring throuhg the sky. night time. i was looking down a t the beautiful buildings.. .lights.. .i have the wings of an angel. huge pair of wings. very weird u see. ha. op well...
but din slpt quite well. think cos of mm... dunno ba. like wakey abit here n there evyr on2 horus or 3=/
hopefully later will get to slp better.
so slpy. .had a nap. today couldnt go anywhere thx to a meeting to attened throgh phone =/ so yea... o well. .off dya always got thigns like work thing... why arO.o
anyway, am glad i have sammy to company with.. chat on phone even for a short while was so amazing. thoguh sometimes couldnt hear properly.. ..heard the long miss laughter..
and yeah msgs.. gosh.. simple day msging each other liek that.. is te best . other than that, =/ sighs. .today super bored.
super duper bored. =/
dunno what to do.
do nothign. sighs.
last night i ate so much! omg. scary. too hungry. not good eat so much at one go.. but.. cant help it. ha
oh had this customer. malaysian? she came to sg for work. shew as like shoppign alone. and spend like 300 over in my store. i was like... whoa. she was a year younger than me. and.. i was htinking.. huh.. at this age, i never bought any thigns like that till hundreds over. dont talk about laptop , tickets.. holiday.. camera... etc. i mean... this is a store.. where theres alot of thigns. cheap n exp. and.. i have never ever bought many2 items.. that added up to a total of 300 over. wow shes rich huh?
was like. .gosh wish i could spend like that. ha. bt no. i always think very carefully before i get anything.
but this time, i may be well prepared to spend alot at this lingerie store in australia. oops... i couldnt resist! soemmroe its only in aust. thats oneof the dang store stil lstubbornly nono wanna coem sg yet. (but most are here so yup=) )
mm.... was asking sammy for directions.. in case he couldnt join me or soemthing..
was htinking of u know. .walk along hte beach freely n slowly... get some fav sun.. but then.. wait a min. so weird la!! lol. walking along the edge of sea beajc.. alone somemore.. wait kena racists ppl then i know=.= but anyway, im sure sun will still be around somewhere eh.
i kinda.. can picture the whole views and roads... but. not quite fully developed. i hope this time there, its gonna help alot with my memories. and.. well.. .hopefully i'll be brave enough.
thinking about me.. heading out. .walking alone confidently even if he could not join... sounds kidna nice too... but. not that nice serisouly. most of the time i wouldve been in fear. n i mustve been trying to memorise where ive bene.. etc...
tiring n troublesoem. but what to do.
sighs.. no confiddent at all. just ... have this feeling will be lost. but its not in sg. =/ imma be lost alon e and frighten.. and dunno where to start.. or... well.. .hopefully this trip will build up my courage ba. have to force myself.
wonder if will ever get to walk with him. but yea.. soemtimes certain things.. must be risk. or history wil lrepeat itself. too suey. i dun wan.. ..o well.
see how ba. pray for me when the time comes... getting lost in chinatown.. certainly makes me so frustrated n pissed off.. and helpless... ...just hope that.. somehow i'll have great memory to make my own way back home. before its too late.
=.= yea. the chinatown one.. took me 45 misn or so!!  omg. before i deciede to catch a cab. btu  like u guys alreayd know the story results. so yea.
but cabs are exp over there. ...unless im super duper lost...  otherwise i'll rather walk3 till i find my way.. somehow ... wha to do. everyhting look the same. roads.. etx... i must certinly note down every single detail! yea i better do... specific building. .how many lights ive crossed. .etc.. time.. mm.. yea.. good idea. at least better than nothing.
gosh. stil lcant believe im doing this man. like.. its worse than taken.
ha my colleague also watched that movie fo rliek at least 10 times. wee.... very nice.
mm. thought of bringing a dcvd portable player.. in case at the hotel.. cna use .. or someting... but... dunno.. hotel still sounds scary. i think i really need a drink or two every night before i sleep. =/ sighs.. .feels so scary alreayd.. its ok. i'll try to take this as a building up courage thingy. so yup. what choice do i have =/ .. o well......
yea..
mmm..... pray for me till then ba.
jaa mata ne.