04 February 2011

long story about trip to sydney 2011

ok... so.. im back in sg. ..sighes... =/ sad. but what to do.
after im back, well.... ...hm... yea.. i learned quite afew..
and i understand sammy situation more.. at least i understand his stand better than before..
i feel very bad towards him too.. sighs.. but yea.. o well....
anyway, im very glad he had fun for the week. and me too..
very thankful to himn as well,..
yea...
i will treat him better than ever before. doing my best k. ha..
im touched for what he went through fo rme..
just wish.. if only ppl could understand us. .and support us..
but well.. its kinda expected for our situation..
so yea..
gosh.. im trying to dl something...
but it's like so long. keep cutting off. duno isit cos of me keep getting dc, or whats the prob. haiz. =/ really wish to have it done by today.
hm... haiz.. the hope of swty coming in july and stay at my place , busted.
he say they dont allow..
haiz.. o well.. i dxuno. however, still hoping he could come.
this trip, yea.. not too bad. erm its very hot and sweaty. hoeveer, this weather ould be better than the last?
wow.. its amazing. from the first sday till the last. howevver, my period gotta ruin lots of things. haiz. making me uncomfortable =/
glad he can understand.. but still.. yea.
i like sydney better than before now.
but the food there.. perhaps im still not used to eating and stuff. ha.
my stomach expanded i think. so bloated too. haiz.
then becos of period and forgot to bring swim wear, =/ eneded up didnt go suntan. i would love to try though. but yea. wrong timing i supposed.
oh yea.. at one point sammy was out for the night with his family.
then me alone in hotel room... watching animes.. then theres a 8 leggeed spidgey.. huu.. .so scary . wishing he woul be home soon. but he did not. after a real long huge fight' and shifting away from the creature, it finally stopped. then sammy is back. huu.. .i relaly miss him sooo much =/ like yea. it was super great to see him back into the room.  then haha. finally with him ard, i drink. ha. nice drink. like vanilla coke. so we drank, and finally!! i had my wish came true. we played the conversation starter. yay. haha. but didnt complete it thgouh huu. but nvm. next time ba.

one fo the day we went to luna park. roller coaster ride and stuff. ha. wow. extreme. omg.
hm... one of the days, we actuall didnt go anywhere. we stayed and slp in.. til late aftnoon =) then he played 2 movies. we watch... and yea...
it was sooo nice to stay inad watch movies wiht him through his lappy. though i fell aslp here and then. hahaha. cos too slpy and tired.
so yea...
well, at the end of day, couldnt managed to buy him bottles of drninks. cos its only meant fo rme to bring to sg. so cannot buy for him. hiayo..

hm... then he video me. omg. i watched. and huu... T_T wth. i looked so sad and tired plus down. then i recalled why. cos he was saying i love u. and for the whole day down, i was alreayd feeling very sad.. and keeep helding back my tears... =/ uh huh.. i could see my eyes.. teary and abit red.. huu.. so thats how i look like whne i was gonna cry.. haiz.
wish could given him a better happy video of me. i couldnt even face the cam.. cos looking at him .. haiz. .heart melts.. sad.. gonna leave liao.. os yea.. tryingso hard not to cry.. ...
final night in sydney, he walked wiht me. .theres this beautiful view.. opera house.. luna park.. got romantic music.. sounds of waves..
we had ice cream..
uh huh... he rememberd which flav i boguh the other time. ha. wow. suprised ne. =)
hm.. .yea.. theres so muh to tell him too.. but i couldnt. cos will keep crying. he's good. he didnt cry. i wish could be like that for me. ha.
yea.. all i cna do is to tank him, and apologized too.... ...cos.. yea.. haiz.. his parents dont like me.. so what can i do..
alreayd given me the death sentence so fast. ..ha.. o well..
anywya, he deserve the best. and.. i guess im not that type of best.
today woeky very early .auto. alreayd missing him. always does.
lets see.. what els emy time of month destroys..
ahh.. i didn wear the sexy leggings for him . haiz. only wore one time? or 2.. yea. T_T baka desu... uu knowar.. how u dont or cant really feel gd or sexy when u're having that. red month. argh. hate it. =.=
who doesnt. anyway... yea.. then cant go suntan properly.. couldnt approach him as muh as i wanted to..
like yea... i really hope in july, if he's here, i'll be ready to meet him, clean and fresh!!!
goodness. period2..... haiz.. i hate u. but im glad he's still understanding enough. gosh.. =/ how i stop loving him if he's always so nice... sighs.. if i dont get to spedn my life with him... then how... happiness would be all gone.. ..sighs.. anyway.. now im just doing my best .. work hard and stuff...
for a better future. stronger after im back. i'll do my best. and yea. for myself too. i wold love to work inm sydney for a change. like my manager. transfer to sg. but who knows. yea.. i should work harder than ever before, and make the request worht the trouble. =)

 we waked past a cupld of times.. sammys school. its like. .so happening =.=
hahahaa. its relaly diff form my life.
maybe without me.. yea. his life wont get dis ba.. but if me.. .. i think i'll changed. to who, i duno. ha. but yea... o well...
just wanna think of the happy moments now.
its as though he's still with me. i took real gd long look at him.
hold him tight, feel him... everything. i remember. yea.. thast why maybe now.. still fresh in my head ba.
his voice and smile. .and his personailty.. huu.. i want him now. miss him so much liao.
going there and spend the money, isnt wasted at all.
i... i am realy gald we both enjoyed oursleves. and yea.
its great. most importantly , is that he must be happy for the week.
maybe i might continue blogging again ;ater or sumtin. see how. because i cant really type all memories here at one go. might've forgotten some stuffs. ha

 oh.. took pics. uh huh. told myself. don regret not taking heaps. so do it!!!! i did,. and im happy he did too. =) ha. though not like 500 per day . XD but yea.. still gd enough. i always look so happy in the pic with him. yea.. he makes me happy =')
such precious time togetehr..
must stay positive.. uh huh. i'll do my best.
we had a very expensive meal together. lol.
very. uh huh XD but its ok. once in a while. its worth it .=)consider tatas our valentines day ba. =) haha.
haiyo.. forgot to pack the kikki-k stuff for hm. he really like it.when he's in the store that is. haiyo.. baka desu. then my contatc lens too. up till now i still cnat find it. omg. i thought i'd packed them in alreayd!!
thats so weird. but o well...
oh.. then at the end of last few days, finally can kissy my man. huu... vbut at least still can ba.. better than 0 days right? o well..
we departed.. i still cried.. haiyo... but yea... .... stronger abit now.. but yea.. huu... the dl keep having prob. =/baka...

hm..... the weathers hot and yea.. sweaty .
while i missed ut that time sg keep on raining. very cold my bro said.
hm... never rain in sydney.. hm...
we spend so much money on food. ha. but its ok. i don rally shop much. only get small coupld of items.
first 3 dasy are wonderful. cos we have energy. lol. then still wonderful. but yea. energy abit drained . ha.
still very good.
of course gd. cos he;s right wiht me.

hm... went to the strand. .get my kikki k stuff.. ha. the service there is so normal .thats weird. to think i serioulsy greeted every customer and say thank u to all of them.
besides me, its only my ex manager who'd done that. sabrina. duh of course. its weird... o well. .duno ba.
hm.....
o well.  so yea.. basically all's gd.. understand the situation more now.. gotten stronger i guess. know whats my target. hm.. yea. tougher days ahead. but just move on.
it'll be soon beore i see him again.
 lol. and he didnt know i was a assiatant manager. XD o well.
hm.... oh. dl failed again. argh... should be my dl speed ba? =/ sianz..
o well.. hope by tonight can make it. huu...
miss his voice alreayd..  all these wonderful new memories, i'll keep them with me. and it'll hold me strong till i see him again.
today wanna have a gd time. rest and have steamboat.
kk. i will gambate de.
hey. aleins been sighted again. azfter about 60 years or so.. tey are back again. no abductions yet. but tehy might be making their presense known.. i jus have this strange feelings. anywya.. yea. given the diasters of this world.. im not surprised. lol. well, who know swhat really is happening excatly eh.
besides, 2012 will come in a short time. somehow. we shall see what more in stores for us. lol it'll be interesting to have the news of abductions happening again on earth. to continue from where the left off.
haiz.. the dl.. omg. make me so slpy .
-night time... before sleepy.. always must remember that there is someone who really loves you alot alot over the other side of this world..-
k.. abit slpy now.. too much to write.. ..ha... well, let sjust say.. these fresh new memories fo rme, even for a week.. its hte best in this world. i didnt held back. no regrets. i let him know htat i love him. and i keep telling him that from the bottom of my heart all this time.. k ba..
talk next time. ha.
jaa mata
 

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