.. my ring.. the ring i bought in sydney.. it slips through outta my finger so easily.. after one week of tortures.. , my finger has gotten skinny yet soemmore eh. ...
sighs..
today.. mrning. ...i duno if i should be saying this. .becos i try to forget.. and its hurtful.. .. colleague of mine is angry . long stry k )
and ppl been saying htings. .. sighs. .u knwo what. forget it. .. =( im upset enough. .i rather not talk about htis now. ..sighs
so yea.. it was a shitty morning.. this fellow saw me crying. .knew that i was upset about something. my new collegaue. he;'s such a blur make us laugh guy. very weird. .blur and funny in a idotic way. no offense k.
i went into back room. .had a tlak with my colleguae who was pissed off at em. .blah3.. then when i came out , omg. songs are playing in the air =.= omg.... sad lvoe song. i was like.. ...wthhhhh................... ... dotsssssss...... this shows how guys can be soooo insensitive sometimes!! omg.
but at least at the end of his blur actions, my tears stopped flowing. thx to him. appreciated. my mrg.. saved unepectedly. ..
he stil lcan ask what songs i wanna hear. .ipck myself. .i was like. .dots.. im so not updated with it. .wher efot tiem. lazy ar. .to dl songs and stufs.. .
but yea. .he was like palying.. chinese songs like. .a throusand years later by jj lin.
and forever love by lee hom. OMG. can u imagine how upset i was alreyad? i don see the need to let hi knw that i've just broken up.. so i din stop him from playing those songs. omg. got all the sad sad songs come out.. play loud2 through out the morning opening withhim.. omg. =.=''''''
but luckily.. a the end of it all, i didnt get so upset liao. ...haiz.
was worried whole day.. waiting for his reply.. he didnt online till late night. then . ...well.. bad news still. but. at least.. i get to know that we stil lget to remain as frens.
.... though we cant be lvoers at all anymore. .. sighs.. .. today.. as though marks the day of having a 2nd official break up. wounds tear up so fast and it hurts like mad. ...
... valentiens day eh. .supposed to have a movie date iwth him. .adn play love conversation starter.. to finsih it u.. .. sighs........ .... waht to do.
..the darkness i had befor ei met hiim. i thought i was ognna die.. .then he changed everythign fo rme.
.. he'll forever be my miracle and light.. ..while me. .i will do my best. .tp stay by him.. if im needed in any other way that is. .) .. when he finds his true happines.s. only then will me as hte star be gone.. .
yea.. ...
someitmes i wish. if it wasnt htat 3 weeks. .i wish.. i have more expereinice to handle parents.. i wish. .i cna be pretencious and force myself to do everything.. ..........but all these.. ..can only be turned to dusts and regrets now. ... if only i knew. ... ..
ha. .heart. .tears oopen wide as ever before.. .. blood.. bleeding profusely... so as my tears..
so. .this is the kind of pain u get. .when u lost something dear to u.. ... its even worse htan death somehow. ..im worried for him... so yea.. we couldnt have a future happy life together.. no lil sammy nor shiling running around.. no cooking life.. ..blah3.. ... i miss his touch so muc h right now.
... i almost believeed i am the luckiest girl in this world to own him.. .... guess i was wrong.. .my luck isnt so gd after all.....
wah tshoul d i do now.. ..he'll be studying hard at school. .polo.. pool.. etc.. me?... .
i duno just yet.. ..ah.. his melb trip should help lifting his spirits up.. as for me. .i duno. i dom think naything could lift me up right now... ..
u know. i rally liek the pics where we hold each others hands.. ..
i miss hte sweetness... i miss everythign abou thim...
i guess.. it aitn him who caused me so much heart pain. .it was his parents.. who did this to us... ..but well.. .cant blame anyone. wont do so. i iwsh i could b perfect enough for htem.. yea.. not sammy. but his parents.. i duno. ... sighs. .if only his parents are as nice as his god parents.. ... .
o well... like this ba.. ... im very slpy now. .should be slping soon eh.. .. i need stitches again.. the flesh been torned open.. need to stitch them up.. uh huhh... .......
haiz.......... romeo and juliet.. salim and pauline. ...
im glad. .i make his life ever so bright... ... adn im so happy he's proud of me. ... likewise2... i will still be cheering him on. no matter what..
no one can ever replace him in my life...
was talking to my fren about htis aussi etrip nest year.. apprantly she encourages me to go gold coast if ever.. then look up her aunt.. as they are very frenly. i can stay there for all i want. and her cousins there are frenly too. ..geez.. i duno. it seesm suhc a great offer and deal man.. but .. ..i duno... im a stranger. .can they accept me / ? but she insists that they are tht sort of ppl whos ok with it. o well. a tleast thats another options there. i have now till next year to savce up eh. hoep i wont go shoppign to destress ba. anyway, no mood for anythign no more.
so yea.. his parents didn call me up. .and we stil lremain as frens. . not jus tfrens.. hie's a special one to me. closest ever to me. the most. ...... sighs.. ...
to lose the part of ur most important par tof life.. that is worse than dying... it realls is.. .... ..bah...... ....
so yea.. ... i duno wh to do now.. ..
sighs... . flesh being cut away from me .tearnig me apart.. ... its worse than death.. its living tortures.. .sigsh. .k ba. .need to slp now.. very slpy. =/
i hope.. somehow.. i can smile truthfully again. .when would htat be.. u guys. .stil lwaiting for my answer about this huh. .
i shal be a secret angel to him... lovey sammy....
mata.. ...
sighs..
today.. mrning. ...i duno if i should be saying this. .becos i try to forget.. and its hurtful.. .. colleague of mine is angry . long stry k )
and ppl been saying htings. .. sighs. .u knwo what. forget it. .. =( im upset enough. .i rather not talk about htis now. ..sighs
so yea.. it was a shitty morning.. this fellow saw me crying. .knew that i was upset about something. my new collegaue. he;'s such a blur make us laugh guy. very weird. .blur and funny in a idotic way. no offense k.
i went into back room. .had a tlak with my colleguae who was pissed off at em. .blah3.. then when i came out , omg. songs are playing in the air =.= omg.... sad lvoe song. i was like.. ...wthhhhh................... ... dotsssssss...... this shows how guys can be soooo insensitive sometimes!! omg.
but at least at the end of his blur actions, my tears stopped flowing. thx to him. appreciated. my mrg.. saved unepectedly. ..
he stil lcan ask what songs i wanna hear. .ipck myself. .i was like. .dots.. im so not updated with it. .wher efot tiem. lazy ar. .to dl songs and stufs.. .
but yea. .he was like palying.. chinese songs like. .a throusand years later by jj lin.
and forever love by lee hom. OMG. can u imagine how upset i was alreyad? i don see the need to let hi knw that i've just broken up.. so i din stop him from playing those songs. omg. got all the sad sad songs come out.. play loud2 through out the morning opening withhim.. omg. =.=''''''
but luckily.. a the end of it all, i didnt get so upset liao. ...haiz.
was worried whole day.. waiting for his reply.. he didnt online till late night. then . ...well.. bad news still. but. at least.. i get to know that we stil lget to remain as frens.
.... though we cant be lvoers at all anymore. .. sighs.. .. today.. as though marks the day of having a 2nd official break up. wounds tear up so fast and it hurts like mad. ...
... valentiens day eh. .supposed to have a movie date iwth him. .adn play love conversation starter.. to finsih it u.. .. sighs........ .... waht to do.
..the darkness i had befor ei met hiim. i thought i was ognna die.. .then he changed everythign fo rme.
.. he'll forever be my miracle and light.. ..while me. .i will do my best. .tp stay by him.. if im needed in any other way that is. .) .. when he finds his true happines.s. only then will me as hte star be gone.. .
yea.. ...
someitmes i wish. if it wasnt htat 3 weeks. .i wish.. i have more expereinice to handle parents.. i wish. .i cna be pretencious and force myself to do everything.. ..........but all these.. ..can only be turned to dusts and regrets now. ... if only i knew. ... ..
ha. .heart. .tears oopen wide as ever before.. .. blood.. bleeding profusely... so as my tears..
so. .this is the kind of pain u get. .when u lost something dear to u.. ... its even worse htan death somehow. ..im worried for him... so yea.. we couldnt have a future happy life together.. no lil sammy nor shiling running around.. no cooking life.. ..blah3.. ... i miss his touch so muc h right now.
... i almost believeed i am the luckiest girl in this world to own him.. .... guess i was wrong.. .my luck isnt so gd after all.....
wah tshoul d i do now.. ..he'll be studying hard at school. .polo.. pool.. etc.. me?... .
i duno just yet.. ..ah.. his melb trip should help lifting his spirits up.. as for me. .i duno. i dom think naything could lift me up right now... ..
u know. i rally liek the pics where we hold each others hands.. ..
i miss hte sweetness... i miss everythign abou thim...
i guess.. it aitn him who caused me so much heart pain. .it was his parents.. who did this to us... ..but well.. .cant blame anyone. wont do so. i iwsh i could b perfect enough for htem.. yea.. not sammy. but his parents.. i duno. ... sighs. .if only his parents are as nice as his god parents.. ... .
o well... like this ba.. ... im very slpy now. .should be slping soon eh.. .. i need stitches again.. the flesh been torned open.. need to stitch them up.. uh huhh... .......
haiz.......... romeo and juliet.. salim and pauline. ...
im glad. .i make his life ever so bright... ... adn im so happy he's proud of me. ... likewise2... i will still be cheering him on. no matter what..
no one can ever replace him in my life...
was talking to my fren about htis aussi etrip nest year.. apprantly she encourages me to go gold coast if ever.. then look up her aunt.. as they are very frenly. i can stay there for all i want. and her cousins there are frenly too. ..geez.. i duno. it seesm suhc a great offer and deal man.. but .. ..i duno... im a stranger. .can they accept me / ? but she insists that they are tht sort of ppl whos ok with it. o well. a tleast thats another options there. i have now till next year to savce up eh. hoep i wont go shoppign to destress ba. anyway, no mood for anythign no more.
so yea.. his parents didn call me up. .and we stil lremain as frens. . not jus tfrens.. hie's a special one to me. closest ever to me. the most. ...... sighs.. ...
to lose the part of ur most important par tof life.. that is worse than dying... it realls is.. .... ..bah...... ....
so yea.. ... i duno wh to do now.. ..
sighs... . flesh being cut away from me .tearnig me apart.. ... its worse than death.. its living tortures.. .sigsh. .k ba. .need to slp now.. very slpy. =/
i hope.. somehow.. i can smile truthfully again. .when would htat be.. u guys. .stil lwaiting for my answer about this huh. .
i shal be a secret angel to him... lovey sammy....
mata.. ...
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