..everything just sux again... ... i dreamt that i was holding sammy from behind his back.. i always love to do that.. =( ... it felt sooooo real... =(((... huuu T_T....... .... =/ so clear too. .he was playing game. .looking at the tv screen.. i held him behind him.. he was wearing a long black shirt... then... he turned.. we were about to kiss when parents woke me up... so yea.. ...
it felt so real.. =( .. .then it slike how wounds open deeper again.. and im so hurt.. =( .... the hug felt so real.. ...ha.. baka ne.. ...
mum said.. nvm.. since alreayd like this. .next time find a bf carefully... choose carefully... then get married soon and let her see... ...
but i don think htat way.. i don see any point of marriage if im not totall yin lvoe with someone. in lvoe meaning.. i can die fo rhtat person. if not.. whats the marriage for anyway..
its such... yea.. i guess i have to u know... get used to everything again.. sine the wound's been open up again... ...
he's an angel to me. and everything else. if without him.. what would my life be....
im sure his life will be better now. weeks later, yea.. happier him ne.
i think.. i need to yea.. thank him now..
anyway... hopefully i'll get well before my bro is gone.. if he lleft for japan,.. hten i.. will be alone more than ever..
i.. just sent him an emaill... words of gratitude.. and all. i don want him to let me go with regrets.. as in,.. regret that i didnt tell him how much i appreacite him for all of him being a part of my life.. ...
i hope he wont delete my email.. its realy a token of how i felt.. and.. u know.. i still cries. .but yea.. ...still learning to stay strong.. .
..ow ell. thansk to him.. i am happy. for 3 years of my life. happiest 3 years of m,y life...
he's such a special person to me...
..yea.. ....
mata
it felt so real.. =( .. .then it slike how wounds open deeper again.. and im so hurt.. =( .... the hug felt so real.. ...ha.. baka ne.. ...
mum said.. nvm.. since alreayd like this. .next time find a bf carefully... choose carefully... then get married soon and let her see... ...
but i don think htat way.. i don see any point of marriage if im not totall yin lvoe with someone. in lvoe meaning.. i can die fo rhtat person. if not.. whats the marriage for anyway..
its such... yea.. i guess i have to u know... get used to everything again.. sine the wound's been open up again... ...
he's an angel to me. and everything else. if without him.. what would my life be....
im sure his life will be better now. weeks later, yea.. happier him ne.
i think.. i need to yea.. thank him now..
anyway... hopefully i'll get well before my bro is gone.. if he lleft for japan,.. hten i.. will be alone more than ever..
i.. just sent him an emaill... words of gratitude.. and all. i don want him to let me go with regrets.. as in,.. regret that i didnt tell him how much i appreacite him for all of him being a part of my life.. ...
i hope he wont delete my email.. its realy a token of how i felt.. and.. u know.. i still cries. .but yea.. ...still learning to stay strong.. .
..ow ell. thansk to him.. i am happy. for 3 years of my life. happiest 3 years of m,y life...
he's such a special person to me...
..yea.. ....
mata
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