Boring life

haiz.. remember that tiem i mentioned about this pic i nvr upload cos its very sad... my poor wrist.. well, last night i almost did. ha. but couldnt find hte pic. so yea...
but this aftnoon, i found it. but... don wanna put up.. not now i guess.
perhaps last night just too sad or waht ba

today also... im so bored. and im feeling very blue =(( and very. .just so sad.... stress also.
i just lay in my bed. .i think alot.. about personal life. .past n future.. and ppl...
alot went through my mind..

worklife sucks greatly sometimes...
sighs..
personal life sucks even worse. .and everyday .
but nothing interests me. i dunno what to do.
drink and work. thats like. .basically waht im doing often.
wth right.  sighs... oh and watching youtube.
so yea. dunno ba.. .life is so boring. but point is, i don have tohe heart to do anything anymore i guess...
i really have no idea of what to do... its same old life everyday... nothing amzling.. nothign special.. nothing to look forward to... for now theres the syd holiday to look forward to.. but what about abt that trip...
hows my life gonna be.. .

its just so boring....... everything is.
sighs... i really need to get these all outta my chest. i felt liek suffocating alreayd.
its so difficult to talk..
and tears washes my face almost every day.
that really sucks i know. =/

that day at work.. dunno why. .suddenly this image and part of my memory with him hit me. and i was so sad.. the images of memories just floated straight to my mind .
i was so heartpain at work.. =(
every single words stil lso clear in my head.

o. today had a nice dream. of him . he's smiling and eating with me. ha. alone with other ppl..think its my colleagues. not sure.
but yea.. it was nice. perhaps thats a deram to remind me should eat huh

last night only 2 springrolls in my stomach. sighs.. today. .lunch i took. dinner.. not sure. now just.. .same ba. no appettie. hope i wont waste my mum's cooking again =/ i felt bad but. .what to do..... its such a heartache to see myself like this. but.. .i just didnt know what to do anymore.
i dont like the way my life is now.
and whats gonna happen after the look forward trip is over... haiz. i dunno.. rrly dunno...

at home also nothing to do.
what should i do...
can someone teach me i wonder..
so stressful... i hate my life so much now. worse than ever.
can u imagien im spending my weekend crying? wth. ...
i rrly wish to have a chance and work overseas soon..
i just don like my life anymore.
it sucsk and its boring. nothigns new..
=/
but then again who knows overseas... perhasp worse eh. haha... but. .well.. at least theres some changes.. .

haiz... feeling beter now.. abit only. better than nothing.
type3 away...
sighs...
still feels like resting on my bed.. but i'll think too much u see... not good... and i'll cry somemroe..
im so tired .

my colleagu now meeting her bf from ns. ha. she finally get to see him after 2 weeks. i feel her. but we spend alot of time slping .. especially him. .can slp all day long. ha. cos of that fugitive that tiem. idiot sia that mas something..selamat something.

here's something my fren wrote on his wall... i was very surprised.. cos.... read on... :

BOY: I miss you.
GIRL: And so?
BOY: I really did.
GIRL: oK.
BOY: I’m sorry.
GIRL: What for?
BOY: For ignoring your efforts to communicate with me.
GIRL: Its OK. I got used to it, then I got tired, so I stopped trying and started forgetting.
BOY: I..
BOY: I…tried to forget about you, you see.
GIRL: ….
BOY: Cause it tore me apart that we can never be…
GIRL: its OK.
BOY: Why is it so OK?
GIRL: I got used to days hoping you’d be back, but then you never did. I started facing reality, and started to get a move on.
BOY: Wait…am I too late?
GIRL: Too late for what?
BOY: To court you?
GIRL: You know, I’ve always wanted to hear that from you. Back then, a years ago. But…I got used to only wishing for it..then realized it would never happen, so I stopped hoping.
BOY: I’m really sorry, but dont worry, this time, I will make your wishes come true.
GIRL: Its my turn to say sorry. Time got into me. You’ve broken my heart already. I cant risk experiencing that again. Thank you anyway. For communicating with
me after a years of silence

thats like. heartfelt isnt it. thats a good example of what happen when its too late for regrets. .and its ur fault for not learning how to cherish or treasure what u had.
but thast a very real situation ..conversation isnt it huh...

very well said indeed. dunno who wrote that though.. mayeb he copy from someone else ba

anyway,.... dunno what imma to do now.... perhaps lie in bed till..... god knows when... dunno why.. perhaps think too much.. i just cant slp ba. tthough brian is bursting out alreayd.. headache. slpy.

see if theres anything, i might blog tonight.

oh almost forgot to say... im so glad boa's new single is out. jap single =) i sang non stop for about an hour that other day. ha. .great to be singing again. but nah.. don feel liek sining now.
huu.. i wanna go ktv =( wanna sing so much again....

jaa mata