Health and stress

eh.. today is a tad warm. .though rained abit just now..
but yea

cant wait for x fator. im rooting for hte burito guy. he got this cute chubby face lol

so tired even nothing much been done ne. sighs... how i wish no need go so far early in the morning to train heaps of ppl. =( wonder how manay ppl are there..
always kena my off n dis me,. .sighs

=/

anyway... .

u know peeps, lesson learnt. crossed off that person if he or she headed  straight for the internet or another opposite sex fren instead of u.
like. really . that shouldnt be happneing .
guess its time to u know.. .o well..

sighs.. i really wish my off not affected =( .. why.. ....
and will my off be back next week? that time no have ne.
and im like  tired for weeks.. i can still rememebr..
like.. slpt on the sofa... once rch home i wan to do nothing but slp right away.. like. .no life.
soemtimes i wonder if all these efforts are worth it.
remind me again why am i working so stressful n hard for? isit worth it for the now?

sighs. =/i dunno. but. trying to shake off this tired feeling ba.

im very pissed off. not very nbtu. upset. .the most .. the MOST3 basic of asking how are you feeling now? still sick? what happen??? both my manager and r g manager never ask. neevr show concern. all my sm can ask is... so did u go clinic??? luckily im smart enough to get her hint!! she lovessssssssssss to hint3 pppl!!! wanna ask fo rmy mc ask la. wth. ...
neevr even ask how are u what s wrong with u that day?  still sick? etc... i feel like. .omg. they are cruell =(
if only im working with yanika or tayissa, its diff story. ...holy cow. im so piffed now. can u believe this??? even a partimer can ask me how am i now. but why not the bloody managers!???

sighs.. .wonder if these are stress=/ ..
how to destress without hurting myself..
sighs.. oh yea na my pocket.

sighs... duno how to smile now..
ac strong if i have to be...
just so no one finds out.'

but i know my mum is very worried about me and my health... haiz.... she still ask if im missing him.. or is it becos of him.. etc.. aint bother to reply her ba..
i felt so bad. another type of stress there.
=/

sighs.. hopefully... i'll do as she say ba..
sianz. .always having her ask me that. ..or worried abiout me.. sighs.. =/

waht sould i do peeps....
..where am i heading after the holiday im lookign for.. will htere be nothign to look forward to thereafter? =/ ..

sighs..

oh. .me have abuot.. 100 plus left to spend. .for 2 weeks.. =/ hoping i can hang in there..  i have not settle hotel.. but by end of nov i could. so yea. wish me luck .hope still availble . mm.. yea hopefullyu.
better be! huu

jaa mata