so... i feel like crap yesterday.. i wakey, still feel like crap. lol... omg.
sianzzzzzzzzzz
today u know what.. i cant be like ytd. imma forced myself to go out. really have to force. if not i'll start thiking again.
as u guys know alreyd. .my interenet left abit only.. i have a few days to go before my internet gb start over soy ea... =/ i cannot anyhow use. .sighs... those games la.. cost me this.. .haiz.
byt should be worth it ba,. liek he said. .take ur mind off things.
i guess so. cos when u do something, and which is great.. i am sitting down and playing. anyhow play also can. ha.
yea. .i don have to keep waiting for his reply... i forget thigns. .i forget ppl... i forget everything.. .but after u stop, that one i dunno yet la.. ha. bt yea.. .i guess so. u know.. just forget everything ba..
better than drinking all the time.
today... i dunno.. i still have no apetite.. but... after hearing what my fren said about the one meal a day.. blah3... what heart prob... something2... of course im not an idiot. i know its not good for my health. but.. when u forced yourself to eat, thats emtionally drained too k. its not easy.
its just not=/
especially if im working somemore then how.
now... gonna hit 1pm liao... im thinking.... =/ tch... i feel very tired... i don feel any guru2 hunger... but isnt this lunctime liao?> but me just wokey ne...
lets see how it will be at 2 or 3pm...
sighs.
but.. seriously.. usually when im out, i don eat till i get back home for dinner.. so thats another problem... i relaly have to force myself.. but. yea.. im still figuring out a best way to do so.. =/ tch/.. very irritating.
see la.. from a small prob statred out as no appetite.. sounds normal eh.. but then it ocntinues on.. and now its posting a huge issue in future towards my health.
how i wish.. things can be different.. without being so difficult..
sighs. ytd was such a freaking disaster.. omg. i hope i can make today be better.
my leg really still need to sit and rest more. .but cannot sia... i have to go walk2... if not dunno what to do at home.. .like stuck... if i eat outside for lunch, ... meaning i'll be spending money.
...haiz... dunno what i wanna do.... =/
ytd was htinking.. like in a serious way.. how life is so boring.. and i just hated it so much...
i meant it in a ver serious thought.
but here i am. .stuck in one...
im.. not really say.. excited yet. .i am looking forward towards the holiday.. but not like. .wow i am goignn. .so excited.. u know .not that feeling. cos i stil have a few questions in my head.... adn.. .sighs. im not sure if this is what i wan. perhaps.. i should try and cast away my worries.. if lost, lost ba... thats something i need to learn to isnt it. i've given up on map..(kinda) lol. imma rely on my memory instead.. hope it works.. memories the buildings.. (they all look bloody the same=.=) how many traffic lights... left right or what... i hope that'll help me in a way.
i almopsr got very los tonce when i was left alone in syd. that was frightening.. panicked.. but. good thing i manages to find my way back. ohew.. memory not good huh. omg. i have to train my mmemory!
..just resting abit now=/
head's heavy. .try not to think so much...
how weird it can be sometimes.. when you're probs, the first one to lend u a helping hand or advice..isnt from somebody you're closest with...
why? perhaps the closest ones been taking htings for granted.. for far too long....
sighs. k ba. gotta stop now. the rest of internet shall be left for online fb and blogging in the next coupole of days to come.. sighs=( have to wait so long till can play.
=/ boring days.. boring nights... .
bah.. perhaps just need to get out of sg soon ba... tired of getting lost in sg... nvm.. lost in syd will be something new soon
mata! mayeb at night blog again> ? shall see
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