today heart feel so stuffy.. =/ duno .. ...then.. bathroom was the only place to let it out. .after which, gotta pretend everything is fine again... just.. concentrate on work and making ppl happy.. customers happy, family ok, then ok ba.. me not important anymore.
let them think im fine also can.. uh huh...
today heart hurts.. as in not only the outside. .i mean. .its the realy heart this time round. hurts abit.. then i recalled this commercial.. and my fren's comments... duno isit paranoid or what.. maybe its really gotta do wit my eating cycle? i dunno.... but... betetr to be safe than sorry. was really starving the whole day... forced myself to eat a bowl of chicken noodle no matter waht(for lunch). so yea.... hope its not as my fren said.. what eat muscles tissue away.. holy cow... i hope now=(
but yea.. should be fine now ba.. tmr see how. dinner soso... mm... yea.. o well... sighs.... tch.. everything is so difficult and.. ..=/.. just black and dark.
bro bought me better pressies this time. surprisingly, he said that can be my xmas pressies. ha. so yea.. i no need to pay him.. but TT_ he hinted for expensive xmas pressy liao... huu... o well. need to go around and find ba
gosh.. i feel so down at htis moment. .that moent in the bathroom was great.. .such a relieved... short lived moment though.. o well...
today theres this angmoh with a woman.. maybe his wife or gf.. .was cashiering him... his girl just looking around... then my manager whos standing next to me say, 'i think he like you',. i was like.. wth., =.= '' but the way he's looking. .abit weird la... but.. .nah. i rather not believe my manager... angmohs really so... omg. fickle hearted? ha
sighs.. .weird.. did i forgot to say anything again? how come im still feelign down=/
like. .soemthigns not out from my heart...
ha. glad htat bro is looking good. he's like energetic now.
i hope i can be like that when im back from syd. ....4weeks to go now.. and.. .i have no idea ...whats my plan. o well... wandering around.. is good in a way ba.. .looking at the sun.. sunset... ppl.. o well...
wonder if thats gonna destress me..
ha. the syd map that i was reading, .. lol. even mentioned that after midnight especially on the weekends, must stay near bouncers. lol. where got ppl say htat of hteir own place.. but well i guess.. cos too chaotic ba. howveer.. it intrigues me though... the more ppl say unsafe.. the more i wanna try and explore their night life . even if alone. but wonder if i;ll back out in the end hhuh..
that aside, .... yea.
mm.. 4 weeks. i wish it be fast over....
sighs... .
at least i brought smiles to the ppl around huh.. more than one today. so yea... but. .whos gonna make me smile. .ha... o well...
oh game is about to be finish load. omg. yay.
kk. .need to sdave my gb.
mata
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