I only smile cos of him

u know how sometimes u cant say something... 

mm. .where should i start...  my frens. .dun understand how could someons parents dislike me.. then we realised. .its their probs... 

not me... 

like i said.. if u;re against someone in the first place, you'll only have more reasons to dislike them furtuher.. 

but i cant tell... .. ha. who knows of the part when i tried to talk, and get cold resutls from them.. .

i cant simply tel him. .oh i said.. blah3.. and ur parent reacted this way blah3... 

and how much do u know of how the wayi feel ...when you're getting such response back.. 
so rejected.... so unsure of hwo they think.. haiz. but well. .in the end. ...i never really talk about htis did i? O.o ...

just that well.. its.. .somethign i never ever told anyone before...

but no matter how hard u tried... the other party din appreciate u.. then.. .what else can u say......

anwyay, i hope he'll get his wishes soon ba... bike n all... as long as hwats gonna make him happy.. happpiest man in the world...

and truly.. ...how i wish.. in that deram when i smiled because he smile........ i wish that was real.. and i wish i could feel happy that way..

i was cleaning my room(super boring todayyyyyyyyyyyyyy) and mum look at me.. .and say.. '' kai xin yi dian'.. .she aske dme to be happier abit more... she said i relaly lost weight his time.... 

i htink .. she knows that im not happy .... 

o well... 

i hope... that one day.. everything will be fine fo rme... 

oh.. bro leaving for japan again soon.. maybe cos of me ba. .cos im headin gout alone... then he also htink its ok. o well.. .hope he'll be safe n sound ba.. as fo rme, i cant wait to be there...

oh.. he's gonna print out hte form for mel.. .mm... yea.. thought no need.. but well... perhaps ned ba O.o

dont ever hinder the happiness of someone u know... that may be the most painful part of hteir life you're gonna cost them.. 

haiz. ...thansk fo rreading.. ... i hope my life will get better soon... work... i wonde rhow will that be...

oh. .he's so tired out today.. i feel him.  10 hours including break... ..o well...... i kena that so much.. imagine i get that many time s a week... 

thast hwy i can feel him so much... ha. lol.. i was like wondering. .if men. .could still do their business in bed afer tired out at work.XD LOL. omg. what a question.. i know. ha.. but yea. i asked himn .lol

so blushing.. =X ... yea is till blush alot.. ha. im not a guy mah.. so just curious.. will they brush off hteir woman, or continue with what their capable of.. =P hahahah

bleah

gosh.. im getting slpy=XN NO.////..///.... 

u know. .glad that while im doing my cleaning up, i din think of nothign much... so yea.. .better than laying in bed all day huh. think about work and life. .ahiz.. .

may u bless the most important person in my life... 

this is my 2 nd blog of the day of 19.11.01.. ..

wonde rif theres a 3rd. ... ha. o well

jaa mata ne..