Turn Of Events

oh. me never mention huh.. first day at work.., me reached home.. after 2 hours, knockout already.. yes.. im that tired.. 2nd night.. hm.. better ba.. glad next day my off.. somemore talked to sammy.. so yeah..

tmr start again..

my 2nd half of the day didnt go too well...

anyway.. im tired today.. so tired..

i admit... there's some disappointments there.. cos yea.. i.... =/ .... o well...

there's always times when.. ...say.. u know the answer. yet.. somehow.. something might've happen.. and u start to question it. u start questioning it.. then....... somehow u.. Doubted the truth. the real answer all along. u Doubted it.
then..... along with everything,..., u became kinda confused. cos.. u know whats real.. but at the same time.. the things which happened, makes it all seem so..unreal..
so.. u try to find the answer. could the truth be replaced already?
the more u try to find it.. the more it seems it might've never change at all... but.... there's no one to tell u so. u are afraid to find out anyway.
so... somehow.. things have been made worse.. but.. u still see the original truth out there... u try to tell urself stop looking at the doubts. but... yeah....... isnt it difficult...not?

oh.. so.. ha.. i shouldn've kept my hopes high.. this is foolish.
=/ sunday i off.. but.. ...i'll be spending it with my frens instead. he... got his own plans already... so yeah.. o well.. guess its not fated to be spending his newly 21st b'day with him. that day, my palm got this blood stain. guess what. very surprisingly, its a love shape. i have a pic of it. will upload perhaps.. next week or so.. its really like. wow. hahah

sigh.. heartpain.. spent 20bucks on a pair of shoes. for work purpose. it cut through my heels and so on.. then found another pair of 20 bucks shoes. at 20 bucks. sish.. dont ever shop at ion for anything less. =.=

anyway.. oh. i thought abou tit. i wanna be like how desperate housewives look like when im in my 40s. and so on. thats how i will look. ;) ha..

..haiz............
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i wonder.. if i should start shifting my focus from now on.. =/

yay.. its not so hot anymore. more wind nowadays..

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do u think............ ... im holding on too..... ...too... tight? or.. too.. dear?

im.. so afraid of getting hurt... ...sigh......
=(

im afraid to ask.. but.. i really wanna know.. who's number one... in..
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mata