Familiar faces

..well.. ya know... =/... ..haiz. since i cant do anything for him anymore.. ..
and its his big day today... i figured everyting all i can do.. basically.. just to wish him a very hjappi birthday.. an e card send to him.. via email of course. (otherwise it would;ve gotten to the bin before his hand).. aznd a special personal sincerity one... .msg. voice. ha. yea... cos.. well.... so long since we talked.. and.. yea. .i just felt that.. he;s someone so close and special to me.. how can a phone msg be enough just like that in whats app? so.. insincere or something. i duno. just felt weird. i need to do something.. so.. yea. .though i cant give him a happy birthdya on his day... the least i could do is to show my sincerity.. and.. uh huh...  i think im all gd and set now. i;ve done all i could. would wish to fly to sydney one day on march 11. one day.. i wish i could do that... but yea.. .wont be his holidays. maybe after a melb trip eh =.= .. ha. anwyay, future unknown. but yea. rrly one of my top wish to do that some day. i duno when. but hope one day........

i know... what my mum was trying to say to me. don ever find a husband who drink, or gamble, or a lecher by nature.. and last but not least, a smoker. she said.. these type of ppl will only care about earning money for their own spendings on these drinks... cigarettes.. etc... gamble away... i know.. and i agreed with her. she also said they wont care about their own family. cos all they care about is to spend money on these harmful pleasures. i know.. like my dad.. ...
o well...... ....
its hard to say.. u never know if i might have his habits too.
but. im trying hard not to. yea.. .o well.

haiz... kinda puts me down man.. just u know.. wish i could brighten up his birthday.. however.. perhaps things could turn out gd.. im dure his frens will give him a fabulous time. yea. ha.. .
hm.. ow ell. thats it.

[so yea... u know.. future is all about the unknowns.. what i can do now is to listen. and i know before she told me that.. and.. yea. whatever comes along will come. .and.. .o well. that should be the last hting on my mind now. seriously. i have such huge workload on me right now. its gd. but yet its stressful. n when it comes for a need to destress, u'll tend to do thigns that aint so gd sometimes.

anyway, oh, liek i said. .i had customers saying im good... (at my job) .. and they don wanna have a look ard the store somemore cos i'll make them buy everything. lol. yea so many of them said that. XD
there was this custiomer. his name is philip. like many customer,s he askded fo rmy name. and said said he'll see me soon in store next time,. another. the other time i mentioned.. don think i said her name. jennifer. oh yea. the one who talked so much with me. .and said going to nz then to australia is so much easier.. oh ..about that. =/ sighs.. yes it strue. now its harder than ever to get the visa and work at aust.. i.. duno. .but i don rrly wish to work at nz. =/... sighs. future.. well, see hwo ba =(

so yea. i have these regulars.. and one more.. a malay guy. who when.. enjoys gd service, will give me treat. so nice of hinm. i always enjoyed serving him. and this lady. susan. an angmoh. such a lovelyyyyyyyyyy lady!! totally cheerful. and nice. omg. she's awesome.
yea. wow. .come to think of it.. im starting to memorise all their names.. uh huh.....
but.. no joy that is enough fo rme to gain happiness for my life...

today.. cold.. raining... very cold. tired day too. slpt late. and din slpt that well...
but enjoyed. .rrly.. the morning i get to company for sammy even for abit. it was nice. i like that. if only i could do so everydya. just to keep him company even for abit..

gosh. gota pick myself up man. moods going dowwwnnnnnnnnnnnnn thx to redz also =/ he's so sensitive about something he did. sighs... wth........=( haiz.. whatever ba...
sighs.. .just so irritating when thigns jsut keep adding on ya. =/ 

=( arghhhhhhh haizzzzzzz rrly man. thats the last thing i need from him. great way to end the night. haiz. =/ o well.... this is great. nights ppl... 

hope i wont dream of work again. i dreamt of going to work on my off day. dreamt of my manager. .omg. hate it. i hate it and i dislike. total dislike to bring work into home. i don like to bring work back to my home. seriously. i always do my best to make sure that wont happen. but when there's a report htat need to be done, or some stuffs i odnt have time to do so at work.. then i.. yea. 

sighs.. kk... moods down . =/ huu =(

hope redz is ok ba

mata