received a msg form sammy today. very confused. dun really get hwats he's saying.. make use of it.. i duno what to make use of. serioulsy =.=;'''' 'anyway, was so.. dead disgusting.. from 2am i woke up, keep headin gback n forth towards the bathroom till in the wee early morning. mrg then continue to dream so much of work. so many dreams of work. cos was tryign to find someone to cover. it was a chaotic mrg. omg. hate it. then got his msg. duno what to sya either. vaguely what he wrote. very long. .think he's encouraging me or sumting. kinda remember the magical part too.
suddenly it dawns on me. i think ppl said that to me too. but i cant rememebr who they are.. or what was it about. .why would tey say that in the first place.
well, nvm gd to forget also. sometimes its best to shed away the past.
today i made a lil changes to myself. ps. the black dot still there. XD amazing. perhaps i should try to make a shape outta it. but gonan be painful =.=
eew. anyway, so yea. i like that . changes number. 2? erm yea. sort of.
i wanna move slowly away from ..m.m. not say who i am.. but. i think its sort of more of like.... just be someoen diff for a change? i duno how to describe this. but anyway, no matter what results sholdnt be too big. remember? i have too much of personailities to show. whichever suits me just fine. shouldnt care so much.
so what changes i made today? u will soon find out. keep watch for my fb ba. perhaps u might be able to find out a thing or two. search for my name under ''yunique''.
anwyay, bak to illness. soooo feaking dang weak now =. i cant even stand fo rlong. im so dizzy man. no one was aorund. .so i slpt in.(glad i did).. then online abit. .before heading to doc.. i duno why. this time i wasnt as neervous as before,. nor rrly that afraid. anywya, it turns out to be more serious than i thought. and yet again. i had a fever. and didnt realized till doc tell me so. he was like. .might have a fever. .but shoulnt be.. i was loike.. ok. hopefull not. then . .oh yea. a fever=.='' dots.
anyway,i rrly have no clues at all whenim having a fever. like. even if im having one 3weeks later, only god knowx. i'll just probably feel unwell, but i cant tell at all.
hm so yea.. something broke' off. or dissconnected or somthing inside my stomach. thats why its like a running tap. omggggggggg. i was like .what in the name of god broke or separated inside my stomach sia?? he said i need lots of rest for this. gosh. im sooo glad i dint push myself to work today. i alsmot did. but all this waking up n down make me so tired. not to mention stomach ache.. so end up still have to apply for u know. =/ haiz.
but glad i did., had i push on, .. .haiz. god help me =.=
so yea. now i need to have soupy food. and not real' food. cos i might cut the thing off n with tap running to toilet again. eew..... totally liek tap. haiz. glad hte doc knew. but yea.
so went to buy some food. .go home. .cook.. eat.. hm.. sounds sad eh. liek. .eya.. but used to it. when u sick, u gotta do what u gotta do even when u're alone with no one ard.
...well anyway, yea.. soupy thing. u know. i din rrly ask the doc how this occurred. but i haev a feeling its my own self. i causes this to happen. i know. i know.. =/ well sorry.
im just guessing.. from the way i.. hm.. let sjust say mylifestyle... im not surprised my stomach get affected now. o wel. u know. even so. its not gona stop me.
so yea. as longas no one finds out. not especially my mum. oh god. =.= can die ne. she'll nag till.. i know mums will always be worried. especially after what just happened to me. but. .yea. i just don like ppl care so much now. just don rrly like ba. i'l lfeel guilty like saying i'll do be ok. then i do things that makes me not. get what i mean> ? like im lying. and i hate that .
so keep quiet is one of the best way to get out.
k ba. i hope to get better by tonight. haiz.. rrly need to sit down.. n chill... n by doing so, my head is spinning now =.=
mata ne
suddenly it dawns on me. i think ppl said that to me too. but i cant rememebr who they are.. or what was it about. .why would tey say that in the first place.
well, nvm gd to forget also. sometimes its best to shed away the past.
today i made a lil changes to myself. ps. the black dot still there. XD amazing. perhaps i should try to make a shape outta it. but gonan be painful =.=
eew. anyway, so yea. i like that . changes number. 2? erm yea. sort of.
i wanna move slowly away from ..m.m. not say who i am.. but. i think its sort of more of like.... just be someoen diff for a change? i duno how to describe this. but anyway, no matter what results sholdnt be too big. remember? i have too much of personailities to show. whichever suits me just fine. shouldnt care so much.
so what changes i made today? u will soon find out. keep watch for my fb ba. perhaps u might be able to find out a thing or two. search for my name under ''yunique''.
anwyay, bak to illness. soooo feaking dang weak now =. i cant even stand fo rlong. im so dizzy man. no one was aorund. .so i slpt in.(glad i did).. then online abit. .before heading to doc.. i duno why. this time i wasnt as neervous as before,. nor rrly that afraid. anywya, it turns out to be more serious than i thought. and yet again. i had a fever. and didnt realized till doc tell me so. he was like. .might have a fever. .but shoulnt be.. i was loike.. ok. hopefull not. then . .oh yea. a fever=.='' dots.
anyway,i rrly have no clues at all whenim having a fever. like. even if im having one 3weeks later, only god knowx. i'll just probably feel unwell, but i cant tell at all.
hm so yea.. something broke' off. or dissconnected or somthing inside my stomach. thats why its like a running tap. omggggggggg. i was like .what in the name of god broke or separated inside my stomach sia?? he said i need lots of rest for this. gosh. im sooo glad i dint push myself to work today. i alsmot did. but all this waking up n down make me so tired. not to mention stomach ache.. so end up still have to apply for u know. =/ haiz.
but glad i did., had i push on, .. .haiz. god help me =.=
so yea. now i need to have soupy food. and not real' food. cos i might cut the thing off n with tap running to toilet again. eew..... totally liek tap. haiz. glad hte doc knew. but yea.
so went to buy some food. .go home. .cook.. eat.. hm.. sounds sad eh. liek. .eya.. but used to it. when u sick, u gotta do what u gotta do even when u're alone with no one ard.
...well anyway, yea.. soupy thing. u know. i din rrly ask the doc how this occurred. but i haev a feeling its my own self. i causes this to happen. i know. i know.. =/ well sorry.
im just guessing.. from the way i.. hm.. let sjust say mylifestyle... im not surprised my stomach get affected now. o wel. u know. even so. its not gona stop me.
so yea. as longas no one finds out. not especially my mum. oh god. =.= can die ne. she'll nag till.. i know mums will always be worried. especially after what just happened to me. but. .yea. i just don like ppl care so much now. just don rrly like ba. i'l lfeel guilty like saying i'll do be ok. then i do things that makes me not. get what i mean> ? like im lying. and i hate that .
so keep quiet is one of the best way to get out.
k ba. i hope to get better by tonight. haiz.. rrly need to sit down.. n chill... n by doing so, my head is spinning now =.=
mata ne
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