finally decided?

duno how come. .after a huge crying(again =.=) i felt as though. .u know. this is it. this is how things gonna be now. get used to it. sinc eu've decided how u wanna go with it..
and.. u know. .u're happy with how things he's handlin gnow.. well.. u know.. i guess this is it. its finally time . what needs to die, wil ldie. i will do what i want fro tmr onwards. i wont care of anyting else now. dangers, or pains. this is all about me now. i will do it my own way. handle my own way.
that side over has been well settled. .now its my side to settle down. .stilltaking its time.. i know. .poor slow me.. but yea. let me try this new way out. i wanan see where or how it's gonna end up bringing me.
haiz. .the med is causing my tongue n throat so dry=/ i need to drink so much.. =. sianz.. hope tmr will be better. .haiz........
so there u go. scared. but its time to go.
i cant back off now. this is where im supposed to take off alone from here.
wish me luck.
i wont be happier. just pray for tears that'l lstop n pains to be numb. .thats all i ask for.
happiness is the last thing on my mind now.
will update u guys if tmr im well, or stil las bad. or worse.
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