Peaceful slp

oh.. how i wish i could keep my mind moving too. but soemtimes even when it moves, the pain still there. reminding u of all times how pain its gonna be still .
well. the most important is him, being alrite. n getting well with his life. that'l lbe great. keep it that way i pray for him.

heard it somewhere... sometimes.. when u wear a mask fo rtoo long, you forget who u are.
i duno if that will be the case for me. im wearing it everyday on my sleeves.. but.. i wonder.. if i'll just forget who i am supposed to be.
but ya know. that could be a good thing after all.
just let it be...

wasnt feeling too well today. wanted to cook. .but yea. ended up in  another lazy day once again. fml

uknow. so tired of this all .sioemtimtes i wish to just give it all up. n just stop.
is not going anywehere for me now. haiz. im jus tnot into this anymore. things changed. and it changed me. if not for the money to survive.. tch =/
i duno man.

haiz. .just so tired of this whole situation... and.. yea.. i duno what to say... .

theres so many dots now.. but i only get one inky dot on me. the others failed. ha. it looks abit freaky. o well. u guys can check htat out in my fb mobile uploads. just bored. .n yea. needed extra pain to it.but its not even that pain. amazingly. ok. so once its gone, i'll blog it here aites. so far.. been daysss now. still remains under my skin. we shall see

 hm.. keep gettig so slpy n tired. i gues.. sighs. when there isnt any more thigns to look forward to, this is how life goes. sickening. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
very2 frustrated =/ i hate this kind of life. back to square one. liek again. i was about to give up then. till he came along. now, its back to giving up. damn...
so hard peeps.. =/ i just cant stress enough. .how much i hated life.. oh god.. i hate life.

damn.

 sorry. bene blogging so muc here within a day. just so needed to get all these thoughts outta my head. so stressful. man...

sighs. u know. i think imma slp it all away again.

better than to live upon this cruel reality. it only makes u happy through some kinda mean ways.. .
theres no true happiness

at least slp fo rhours.. will feel as though its death. u don feel anything.cept when u dream.. then moment when u wake up, thats a whole diff story.

its a cold2 day today . my nose isnt that well either.

 oh. perhaps why i don rrly give a damn about japan, its cos of how im feeling now? geez. sorry peeps. =/ just cant control how i feel. but yea. .just wish jap news would stop soon. its driving me insane. hate to hear news abt all these. n if ppl feel so sorry for htem, shut the fuc k up, and donate to them, fly there n help htem whatever shit. arghh hhhh hwhy keep on tlaking about it? tcj. just hate everything now man. i don get why they wanna pray, or sing songs about it. .blah4....... gosh i hate these ppl. i hate everything. damn it all.

=/ tch.. just hate to wake up man. best is when i fall aslp. before slp is scary.. cos its dark. .and alone.. n scary. .n very lonely.. n thoughts start to run wild.. very frightening.. then slp. became numb. then woke up, u feel the heartache . see? only the slping part is the best of all through the day. sadly, i only get this type of peacefulness for less htan 8 hours per day.

mata